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Life is tough isnt it. i dont know where should i start.
Now, its feels that im lonely. Yes, ive been missing so many friends and ive yet to meet them. Im so happy that i hangout with my ex-schoolmates boyfriends, fiq,azam,fir,farooze just now, even if it just took a while. I miss my friends. My ex classmates, oh, where are they? how are they? Its hard for me to just see them once. Sometimes, i felt dissapointed cos non of my dearest friends contact me. here i am, alone again.
I just wish for this one day, that i have all my friends back. I know, my relationship make me changed alot , make my close friends feels that im no longer in a tied friendship with them. Yes, im happy with my love beside me, and yes, maybe i waste a lot of time with my love. Yes, i have already found my space.
i guess this is the time for me to regain all my friendship back. I miss my old peeps. best friend ain,qida. I miss hanging out with you babys.
Have a conversation just now with my mum really hurts me so much. I just dont understand why does she really need to push herself so hard when she know that she cant make it to the top. Brother try to defend our rights but she is just to stubborn to notice it all. To notice that this is teengae kids nowdays. It hurts so much, n i bet it hurt brother too, and i know, brother is trying his best to control whatever deep emotion that he had and stay strong. Brother has let it all out , n yet mom didnt event realise it. Yes, thanks brother. All that i wanted to say to mum that ive been keeping it from my entire life, brother had said it. N i too had done my part. Now i feel less pressure. Sometimes, i dont understand why does she need to be so proud of herself, n making us better than the rest. I dont know. Yes, she must be proud cos we're no spoilt like the rest. Of course she must be proud,cos we respect her and we choosed to listen. Gosh , i dont know what the hell im saying now. Im just so sick and so hurt by mom. She just wouldnt try to understand us, in a way. I just hate critisizing. Please, im just a teenage girl.
Long story cut short , yesterday torn with boyfriend all the way. Had so much fun. Boyfriend bought himself a pair of contact lense.
ello once again. Thank you for dropping by. Huhus.Haah , thank you boyfriend. Now, reached home and damn im so exhausted sia. I feel like relaxing in a spa. huhu.
Yes, Hi. Today's update : 8 monthsary .
Huhu. I know, At 5pm met boyfriend tampines n took bus to east coast park, reach at 7 pm headed over to the roller blade shop since both of us didnt fast and rent ourselves two roller blads for two hours which cost us $34. Which means, $17 each. = $10 first hours, $7 overtime hours. Enjoyed ourself laughing at each other faces. I fell down harshly for 3 times while boyfriend fell down 2 time, funny thing is , the three time i fell infront , like superman n indra fell behind, like sitting on a chair. Funny siol. It was ages since we laugh at each other. we skate from C to E. which took us an hour and 15 mins. lol, puas hati jalan kan?. Oh yah, otw, he gave me ritter sports chocolate as a gift.
Suddenly he told me to promise him that i would close my eyes and count to 130. I was lost at that momment and i knew something weird gonna happen. So , i follow the flow and agreed. I close my eyes and start counting.1..2..3..4, but until 45 i feel something on my neck. I was laughing and keeping my eyes closed. Until 55 when i stop counting and i felt something most cherished thing he's every given me , a necklace. With three hearts. awww. sweet!.
I was hugging him all the way. n suddenly...
he said " adoi2, badan di saket ,ahh", i was kanchiong on that momment . His right hand was in his back tat that momment but when he put his hand infront , he showed me a yellow small packet , includes of an earing and a letter, he was saying " eh ,ada benda ni pulak, nah.."( something lyke dat ).
I was so damn embarassed and just laugh. I told him i hate him because he loves to give me surprises. He just laughed at me and stared at the necklace that he just put for me. N he said " sweet lahh". OMG!
Overall, i love boyfriend. He has given me three presents for 8 monthsary. & i love it so much.
He really do love me , sooo damn fucking much sial.
I know. Well, i just want to say something to sumone, to my very own blood brother, Thank you for sacrificing. I love you alot. But if u ever feel that its too nasty for you to have you bednight sleep at the hall, you are welcome back to your own place.
After that , hang around waited for brother to reach home. At around 10 plus, we headed to jurong east to visit relatives who has passed away. The body is still there, will be burried tomorrow. Before we headed there, mum and i have a very funny time , what orang tua usually says "Orng gi melawat, ni nak melawar". You know. Mom n me had a Runway show, asking my brother and dad whether this look or that look okay. Mum face was seriously ugly when she wear tudung. So makcik2 , n that one point of time i accidentally said " eee, muka mcm mummy jee nak mati". I head brother laugh his ass out at our room. Lol. We really waste time so much sia, because of the clothes. But , at last , manageable. Dad was serious frustated with us , he said " ni kalau aku berak pon korang dua tak habis2". =_=", serios, he did do his passmotion thingy. But that time we are already in our clothes. So yeah.
Headed down there, talk talk talk. Smoke for a while. Go up back. Then go down again. Headed to Mcdonalds with whole family excluding mak,khidir,ika. Plus mey friend, fahmi. Then eat eat eat, lepak lepak lepak. 1am+ go home. Like that lah. So, i guess that's the main story. Now, thanks to kak mey and shima for laughing their ass out due to my fake hair. Sial korang. ( y )
Now , let me tell you how do i n the one who passed away, LINKED. Since kak mey and my brother were lost in the linking part.
Me-mother-grandmother-late grandfather ( part 1)
Me-mother-grandmother-fake late grandmother (part 2)
Aruah whom passed away just now-aruah husband (part 3)
Look at the bold & red one , they are siblings. So, we're family. get it?
Ok well. Today , skip first part. Went geylang with boyfriend. Meet him at 4pm+ at tampines and took bus to geylang. Boyfriend is still limping and he's trying his best back to walk normally. So, Breakfast and walk2 after that. Nothing much to say. we still had yet to decide on our couple clothes. Huhu. Eyh yah , boyfriend told me to invite anyone who is willing to join us rollerblading at ecp. But dunnow when. Huhu, anyone? any couples?. Its gonna be fun! Well, my post ends here.Gosh , spending time with boyfriend really makes me think about the past alot.
yes, i know. Its only seven months , but seven months is such a big deal. you
know. Im really lucky to have an understanding boyfriend. Shahindra , i love you
so much. Betol lah siak , aku tak bedek k.Huhu.Came back home , got nagged for a few minutes by both mom and dad. They planned to go geylang on 12 september and clean the house on 13 september which the fact is my 8th monthsary with shahindra. wahlau , it's so damn exciting lah celebrating your 8th monthsary cleaning the house. Gosh , baru terfikir nak go ecp play rollerblade. Potong mood ajek sia!.
Yes, he's my Love.
Firstly , happy teachers day to every teacher in da house. Yeah. Woked up at 3pm today and boyfriend was busily taking his prac 1 at ubi. At around 4pm , received a call from him and he said he felt down from his bike two times , i could hear that he was trying to say that when he fell down to the floor , he felt like he's superman. Ok, but i know he fell down hard, due to his few bruises and his spoilt handphone after that accident. Firstly , he accidentally skidded, n secondly , the stupid car driver knock him down. && he told me that the bike he was riding on earlier spoilt , with the number plate left unshaped, now u can see that he's accident is serious. Ok , not that serious.
So, soon after he came to my house to buka with my family . But unexpectedly , boyfriend breakfast earlier due to his angry mood because of the accident he had just now. What a waste. So, ate our breakfast meal , went down stairs and.....
Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! You can see what's he doing. So yeah , dont wanna explain more [insert] folder. So , Like i said, he promised. N he did it . With no regrets. OHHH, he even burn up the envelopes. ( if you read my past post , you would probably understand what the hell is happening right here ).
Boyfriend is busily putting all the letters inside the CAMPFIRE. Lol. He just dont seem to bother. Lucky him.
His past thingy, oh yah , ive forgotten , he even burn up his , uh , chain? uh, oh bracelet and so called like a wallet. Woahhhhhh. i help him to burn all that thing tooo.
& lastly , this is the final piece of art work that he has done .