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30.6.09 02:50

My mother, my mentor.

Today, woked up at 5pm. Suddenly in my mind i decided to actually go to my cousin's house and see baby Rian. Text kak mey up and met her at yew tee and off to jurong east. Wait for boyfriend next as he just end his tiring work day. So, went kak mey house. Lepaking. Baby Rian is getting cutter. OMG.Pity Mey for whatever shits that she is going through rite now but i hope that everything will be perfectly fine one day. Hope her family does. Idk. Yeah. So, send boyfriend back home and boyfriend said that he feel like he is the girl and i send him back home. He thanked me as i sent him back home. Actually, the bus that we took was stopped at my bustop, but i since i still have the time and im scared that he would overslept and "terlepas" from his bustop, i accompanied him. So yeah, long way back i guess, from wdlands to jurong , from jurong to wdls , from wlds to tamp, and from tamp to wdls. same goes around.
Have a small talk with mum just now. From friends to boyfriends to husband to admirer's to secret admirer's. Yeah, Got to hear that someone actually is interested with my mom. He is so called a "boss" in london. OMG? he has a 14 year old child. Funny huh? I told her to have an affair as i may use "my godfather" money and spent in london. Could u just imagine ur in LONDON right now? i would be probably be shopping by now. Gosh. Lol, mom just laugh and gave me one chronic face whic means that she's dislike it. Ok yeah.
So, after that, the most hurtful and mother-daughter bonding time of all. Mom told me about our past history and all and she suddenly pop-up a story about me having a study problem. she just couldnt understand what is wrong with me with studying. Firstly, she told me she spent $500 on my brain scanning just too see what is wrong with me. ended up the doctor said nothing happen but only she is a slow learner. She said it is such a hard pain when u paid $500 and ended up there's no problem. The doctor said that i need a mentor.She then became to realise that i need a mentor and she need someone to help me to open my brains so that i could be a nomal learner. She thought of putting me into counselling but she know's that her daughter is not mad. After all, she felt hurt if someone try to says that im stupid. She really does feel hurt. Then she sent me to MINDCHAMPS. A company of professionals which she spent $3000 on that course which took only 2 months. On that momment she only have $2000 on her bank and she need another $1000. She felt stress not knowing what to do. then She used up her Work pay for $1000 . On that moment, mom was stressed and mom cried and complained to my dad and her mom ( my granny). My granny wanted to lend my mom money but my mother disagree. She said, " if i didnt pay up this course for my child, my child would be a slow learner and she just couldnt think that much" So, for$3000 and never have i hear my mother didnt pay up her bills for two months , eating only $2 everyday , she sacrifice for me just for my study. By that moment i started crying and holding her hands, she even cried too. I hugged her so tight and told her thanks for giving me the oppurtunity to learn as a slowlearner and gave her a kiss on her cheeks. Lastly, she said " But i am so proud of you when the last day of mindchamps ,, you gave a speech about me. ". I just smiled.
I couldnt imagine how it is to be a sacrifice mother like my mom. She sacrifice's thousand of dollars to make me fit in just like the others and she doesnt want me to be humiliated by people around me. Thank you mum. You are the best mom that i could ever think of. Now i know how much she sacrifice for me, i wish that god can forgive whatever mistake that she had done for all these years. Without money , we cannot change people lives. Im proud to say that SANISAH BTE MISONAP, is my mother. I love my mother, she is my mentor.
She said " you know why i started to do my own business? because im so scared that my children would be unemployed because they're a re not good in studying, cannot reach to a certain certificate. At least if i have my own business, my childreen still can work, stilll got money to earn. Still can be a leader. I dont want my child to be unemployed and has no money to go through life."

NO ONE MESSES WITH MY MOMMA.

29.6.09 04:39

ok so yeah. Hello people. Im back again with myself. I know, i recently change alot of skins. I'm sorry. huhu. well, i guess that im will be sticking to one skin. Already edited.Maybe need a little bit edit here and there but urh, i guess this skins should be fine. So, did not do anything today. Woke up , eat , play com until now. How interesting is my life now? Gosh. I need to work. Hmm, when am i gonna start working? Wanna ask My manager tomorrow if there's a slot for tomorrow's work. woooo ! So yeah, boyfriend's first day at raffles hotel as a waiter. He's not been doing that for 2 years. huhu. He complain of cramp on his legs and all the gossip that he could tell. I just wish him luck. Boyfriend gonna be busy working and it will be a gap for the two of us. It's ok. I understand.
Idk what else to say... urh. Blank? Oh yeah , still remember this "Mat's reps" the other day while i was taking 168 bus otw home. They talk so loudly that i couldnt sleep and here their story all the way from tampines to woodlands. Gosh. They talk about their rioting history, which friend they hate, which group they follow last time, dunnow who father grandfather sakongsa . Lastly, the most unimportant thing of all, CLUBBING. Serious shit. I dont even know whats their age was. I guess YP's? They were talking about the same club which i was suppose to go to, same EVENT. Butter factory and st James. One one them proudly say " EH, sikit hari member aku ajak aku sia gi Butter factory abeh postpone". I guess they don't know what's the reason why its been postpone. EWWW, if i were to go, my boyfriend and i would probably dancing with the YP's? I know im still a YP but Fanatic YP's? Jauh bandinganya. Ok. I guess i should wait for my 18 birthday. As i dont wanna get involve in any underage party gang fights. Who knowS?. once again, eww.

ELLY, THIS ONE FOR YOU

Myself- I choosed Sengkang/WWW, 3rd july.
Aini- No reply
Lyeena- Working
Mirah- Jurong , 4th july.

28.6.09 03:30

haha. Yeah i know, stupid right. Well, thats one of the stupidiest thing that i ever done in this school holidays.

So, there's so many casses in H1N1, its hard to say, everbody is so kanchiong now. Me too. Everybody is getting sicker and sicker. I caught up with a fever yesterday and just now due to my pimple in my nose. I know, random right? but it seriously rising my tempreture up. pain sia.

So, secondary school students, are you ready to go bakc to you school? haha, so saddenings, there's no extentions. ok wtv.

Now, im so sorry for micheal jackson. Ok, so many blogs ive read talks about the greatest micheal jackson, im not gonna repeat what they because you guys probably know micheal jackson more than me. RIP. I hope we know what happen to him, why he's dead on what purpose.

Ok, so back a few days was practising NDP. Still the same old thing happen again and again. Best friend came to my house next just to do his HAIR straightening for four hours. OMG?!. Talk about the deepest secret ever which i feel a little discomfort to talk to him at first, but manage to as i feel that keeping a secret for a long time wont be a good suggestion as best friend has some illusions , and watelse, his my best friend. yeah.

I guess, ive been falling back in love with boyfriend, even though im still with him. I just cant resist him. Ok serious, its been everyday that we met and i still cant resist him. Falling in love is the best part, but leaving for love, is the hardest part that i could imagine. I think he is my first true love. Serious. Shahindra, your mine.

25.6.09 13:54

Hello people. Yesterday, was supposed to go clubbing but the club event was postponed due to H1n1 case. SO yeah. We decided to go sentosa at around 7pm and we finally met each other around 9.30pm. Hang out wiuth boyfriend friend and went to sentosa. It was so damn quiet when we went down to pahlawan beach. It's like we're the only couple. haha. So, we hangout and chills with his handphone songs and lepak till morning. We didnt have a swim because the water level was so low and when u step on it, its very muddy and disgusting and so many litters. The water was so dirty. eww? never had a worst experience in sentosa. Besides that, we've been bitten by mosquitos or so called Sand mosquitos. Idk. Eww, still ichy though. heeeeh. So, yeah. everything was perfectly fine.

Scroll down to see our pictures ya?

I didnt even know he was taking this picture.

Gosh, stupid.

This is my favourite pet. I love it.

Besides, its lime green .

Oh ya, results is out. Ive got 1 A, 2 B, 1 C & gpa point was 2.9. How low is that?
Oh, maybe not that low but urh, gonna try aiming 2 A's now.

So, thats the story.

23.6.09 17:01

Firstly : Im so sorry to hear the bad new that faroze mum passed away last two days , even though i dont quite know his mum that well. Inalilah. Secondly, HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO NUR AIN BTE YACOOB AND NASIR. haha. LAst Long Ok you couple. Go go !.

Yes. Hello there everyone. I know its been few days since i post anything here.

Oh well, life is perfectly fine and i guess there's nothing much to talk about . Results are coming around this week. I hope i pass all subject *finger cross*. Yesterday, went to bukit batok CC as boyfriend need to do hi check-up for this dunnow what comppany and received $50 for doing so. Then went to city hall to buy some stuff, we bought both quilksilver and roxy stuff. huhu. then went to watch the movie i love you man. THeir words are so chronic. Fuck here fuck there. But its an awesome movie !. huhu.

Boyfriend slept my house that night and we enjoy ourselves with the big computer screen in front of us. haaaahs. Then afternoon woked up. brother was there and in the vening something happen. haha. Which probably will not gonna tell you guys because its so private. Only best friend fir knows. haaaaaaaaaaah.

Was supposed to go clubbing today at butter factory but it ended up being postponed due to H1N1 case, ok so lame lah. Haiyah. I wonder should i go for this 125th at st james? hmm, would be going out later tonning at sentosa with boyfriend. since we dont have any other plans. bullshit.

i know i dressed up too much right? so not sahira again.

19.6.09 00:41

Good night.

Been staying up until 12pm just now. Been calling boyfriend since 9am to 12pm for 56 missed calls and all he says after that was there was no missed calles at all. crazy?. hmmps.

Slept at 12pm and woked up at 6pm. The cooked at home. slept again at 7pm and woked up at 8.00pm. huhus. Was fun actually. Went sheng shiong with boyfriend and wandi and isha , boyfriend bestie or buddyHmm, except for some minor things which i feel so uneasy about.

In my opinion , people always say, whats goes around comes around. The first time boyf . riend get to know my best friend fir, he was jealous , espeacially when we use "i..u" conversation. But he was ok now. Till just now when isha speak to him in an "i.. u.." conversation. Ok serious i was shock. Like really shock? but it kept me thinking that whats comes around goes around . so yah. it might hurt me in the heart a bit but iwill be ok. For sure. Isha touched him, i was, " ewaaaahhhhhhhh". haha. But nvm lah, since they are buddies, why not share him? lol. Ok.

So, after went back home, ate chocolate cake by sarah dunnow what. Then ate ice cream corn. Then drink coke then eat cadbury chocolate. Yes people, im growing... Oh ! i really hope u still can fit it to to my ite shirt. huhu.

Till then i love u all.

Btw, i thought today was friday. skali tomorrow sia.. bodoh.

18.6.09 07:49

I know, this picture is sooo way lamer then u ever thought. It was our 5th montsary picture at around 6am when we were at the bus going back home from work.Yeah.

Huhus. May boring all day are simply all the same. Oh yah. I thought i am over wit this shit but still this shit will not end, even when im growing up. Wanna know what? i get BULLIED. So primary school people say , but na-ah. This happen at works. Nope, not teenagers or youngster. MAKCIK's in the house plus Madam aminah , haaah, indra's momma named. They bullied me very very badly. Reason: Hankerchief. or issit hangerchief? ok watever. Spelling bee contest is so old school. So, as you know im the lady with the "tuala"( hankerchief or hangercief in malay form) , they called me minah tuala or worst Minah rewang. Thanks to indra aunty's everyone get so excited about my tuala thingy. Same goes indra momma. Was kind of paisey actually , but hey, thats what i am. huhu, i didnt came to work yesterday and indra momma thought i merajuk , what does the word translate as in english? gosh. I've not been practising my english vocabulary , grammar or watever shits and when i read back my jumble up non-grammer ,unuse vocabulary, post it makes me feel like im in kindergarden. ok LAME.

2am today , very sweet. Boyfriend and me bought Mcdonalds, both cheeseburger meal, delivered at each houses. We eat at the same time, watch the tv series meet the Jury or something like that. But we're not together. at each other houses. so , yah.

It seems that i can't find any other way to sleep as i have slept for more that 16 hours yesterday. shits. Ok, so yah. Thats about it. Oh oh !. Ive got ndp practise at Marina Bay tomorrow. Hope its gonna be fun. Riiighht.

So,people, i cant wait for my pay fees to be out as i eagerly wanna shop. I just couldnt stand it any longer. The tee shirts and pants and shorts and three quarters short n shoes are making me crazy. Shopaholic much? i guess so. Who's not that shopaholic enuf when its been 8 months that you entirely never shopped at all?. Ohh shit. Money money money. I want that pay fess so eagerly. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaah !. I'm going shopping with boyfriend, pity him. Well, i guess he gonna shop MORE and LONGER than me. I guess SO. Gosh ! let's shop babay !.

This guy over here.

Name : Kenneth

Age : Not apllicable

Status: Attached to Sahira.

Haha. Fuck shits.

Everyone in ndp, GIRLS and BOYS are interesting falling in love with the hot hunk.

Is he philipine again? ive forgotten.

People, please do not be so over excited, that guy is so attached to me, right baby?

haha. * Dream on girl*.

Psst: please do not tell my boyfriend, he's gonna kick my ass through marsiling hill for sure.hees.

16.6.09 00:44

huhu. So, its been so long, that i havent put any post at this blog.

Happy 5th Monthsary to Sasha. We planned to meet each other actually but since i'm so tired after work and straight to ndp , i felt liked there's a stoned above my body which tends to pull me down and not wake up from my lay downs. So, boyfriend overslept and he met me straightway at 9.30pm. It was damn too late but he still give me his effort just because he doesnt want me to feel down as it was our 5th monthsary. I didnt even know his coming over. So, he called me and asked to open the door, i was confused by then. I asked him what the hell is he doing there, and he just smiled. I opened the door and lay myself on the hall ground. Then he touch my hands and gave me a present. I smiled and smiled dont even know what to do. So, yeah. Open the present package was a DISNEY PRINCESS CUP which i wanted with CINDERELLA in it and a CINDERELLA NAME TAG. OMG. Wellm maybe for you guys it's not that sweet whereas its childish. But no! Its fucking sweet lah. Only a boyfriend would know your childish ac t 100%. huhu. So, all i gave hym was chocolate. haha, blabla.When he's ready to take off, i gave him my home mad portfolio. He was shocked. Ok shocked & appreciate that present i made very much. What can you say. Love. huhu.

Even my brother say, " aku tak pernah nampak kau buat ni semua benda kat ex2 kau yang lain? kau syg dia ehhh..?". haha. yes.

So, the next few days was preetay okay. I guess. Ive sent qida to the airport yesterday. she's happy. i guess. goood for her, So now , im chatting with FIRDAUS PAUS.

C that below pics, that was my mom. My momma was busily checking her emails while firdaus kepoly snap their pictures.hilariously stupid.

My aunty just gave birth to this

young baby. Al-Rian. He's Gonna

Be My next RYAN SHECKLER.

Haaaaaaaaaaaah.

I gtg Now, Working at 9am tomorrow.

Ps ; I love you

12.6.09 03:02

I know, i get bored easily. I dont used computers for hours anymore. Ok watever.

So, for this holiday period, i will be working my ass off at my workplace and Ndp practise. yes, now, money money money. Its been MONTHS since i go SHOPPING, lyke REALYY SHOPPING. Gosh, ok can i say 8 months? I kept on Re-using all the same old clothes. gosh. I hope i could get $200 or more? Oh please, i still need to treat my family at sphagetito. Or shall i treat them 2 piece of roti prata instead? haha. busted sia. Lols, I want to shop for clothes shoes. I want that crossover shorts!. Crossover, My new lovely favourite brand. heees.

Gosh, i cant belive i met my boyfriend ever day for 1 week 1 day now. OMG.

Hmm, i guess everybody change for now? Most girls are changing to WOMEN. Lady like dressing and stuff? I gotta be like them. It's time for a new change. But hey, FAT GIRLS like me very hard to be BEAUTIFUL u know. Lols. Alah, Make my momma and boyfriend proud.

Shittos, my momma say that im fat like elephant. haha, funny sia. But still and OUCH in my heart. Kohaja eh prangais, skali ku Trajanggs kangs. Huhu. How to dress up when your FAT? is there any such web or google?.

7.6.09 22:33

Boyfriend.
Came to my place at 5 plus pm. So , didnt know what to do . Just hang around and did nothing. So, next was cooking time. Boyfriend help me to cut the fish, taking out all the gills and stuff. huhu & i cooked. So yeah. Soon later we go isap rokok. then watch nigt at the museum. then boyfriend went home due to his parents wants durians. mrepek sei. haha.

so, after that, chat with best friend fir. stop eh muka. lol. step cute.
PS: He never bathed for two days. , MASAM SOYALLLL!
Webcam with him. Like gundu. haha.

huhu. overall, im siow.

Chatted with boi17. video call.

16:46

NDP.
National day practise has seriously make me an active plum girl. Even though the training aren't that tough as armies going for Ns camp, but it have made me a better person. Friends come and go, but, this friends that will go away from me at the end of August 9 , will give me a speacial memory. Each and everyone of them. So, all of my Fridays and saturdays are all reserved by NDP. Even weekdays too. August 9 is coming near, and we need to practise more and more.

Last saturday practise was such a tough one. We pratise in the hot sun like bbq foods above the hot charcoals. but still we endured. huhus. Was fun actually practise NDP. You will never feel tired with the crazy people around ou especially the loudest one.

So, saturday, after practising Ndp, went down and meet boyfriend. Coincendentally met boyfriends 2 cousing and lepak with them until 8pm. Boyfriend sent me back to woodlands as he said its been a long time since he had sent me home. So, straight away meet family and cosway point banquet as they had waited for me for an hour and 15 minutes. siow. Then went home. rest. Home sweet home.

Today, sunday, woked up at 12pm by the lightnings outside my bedroom window. shittos. Blackout happen next and i just twist the stupid thing and poof, everything is ON . So, using laptop and dad start nagging said the house is messy and all. Waste my 1 hour and just do some laundry, fold the whole 2 bunch of basket full of shirts and shorts and bra and boxers and others.

Boyfriend is coming over , he just went off from his cousin's wedding. So yeah, he's going to bring a packet of nasi briyani. So kemut lah. why dont weddings give 2 packets of nasi briyani? it will be much better for sick people llike me to eat at home with other people who havent ate their dinner. haha. ok, expensive sia.

So , thats all for the updates. I will be enjoying my nasi briyani, ok lets just say my DAD is going to eat them. Because i didnt cook at all for today. so yeah, tak leh tashyan.huhu. Romantic time with boyfriend today, see you all next time. toodles.

Till then,

i love you all.

Best friends and seconday schoolmates, when are you gonna go out with me?

Please, ITS HOLIDAY already.

O levels shittos. heeh.

5.6.09 18:29

Life is unpredictable.

Firstly, im so sorry that i didnt have the time and effort to actualy blog or shall i say told you readers about my whole boring every day life. Its been weeks since i blogged , so its quiet akward to tell you people whats happening in my life right now.

No, kak Mey, my blog is not dead, still breathing through the lagging communication that cyber had made it into such a huge disaster. But the owner needs some time off l the laptop screen and away from broadbrands linkys though.

Schools

Dont even talk about it. I've got no guts in passing my OSA exam paper due to my stupidity. The one thing that every teacher had remind it from primary to ite, or poly. READ YOUR GOD DAMN INSTRUCTIONS. Oh well, insttead of doing three sets of sections paper, i carlessly did only two sections and i loose 25 marks just for that section which i never did. Careless much? yes. Well, i hope CRN and OFC will give me a good result. * fingers Cross*.

Families.

They are fine. Everybody is fine. Except for Girlgirl , "one of two such siamese kittens in the house acting like the queen of genovia( ok, so princess diaries. )". I think she's pregnant? Can a kitten be pregnant at a age of 8 months old? Still wondering though.

Friends

Randomly i dont even know why suddenly my secondary school friends started contacted me back. Vinitha,nabilah,shi shz,dewen,raga & all other people that talk to me with Vini's HP during your art class today.Awww, so sweet of you Guys. One day we all planned and go out together ok. Promise!. Cant wait for Your free period, or shall i say your 3rd to 4th week holiday?. idk.

Ite friendsare perfectly normal. As the same as before. Haaahs. So yeah, Oh ya, Wednesday, Couples outing. SHAHLYEENA aka Izwan Shah And Marlina , SASHA aka Sahira and Shahindra went to punggol and have some fun together. huhus. Fun lah.

Boyfriend.

Nothing change him. Still the ordinary gundu which love to bully me every single day of his boring life. haaahs. so yeah, i can understand that he's always in good mood to bully me. 24/7 just like 7 eleven or Mcdonalds. Ahhhh, freesh.

Yes, after going out with Shah and lyeena, went and lepak at Boyfriend best friend named Elfie. Torn there like nuckleheads, then went home around 3pm and went to meet boyfriend again at 9pm and went fishing.

Couple Fishing. lols. So, its a tiring day afterall. Got 1 fish but we decided to let it go because it's so small. Got an Eal for no reason, we've been PUNKED by the Eal. As the Eal was put above the wooden plank, it act as if its dead, but ended up, when we were busily pulling our fishing rod for fish, the eal jump over and vanished in the sea water. Suey lah. Lols, but shall i say, people in fishing do believe that catching an eal would be a bad luck as the next coming fishes will not be eating at the fishing wire. IDK why.

So, boyfriend has to make many Mata Kails and throw away the EAL mata kail. Lol, he really cursed the Eal like shyt lor. lols. So yeah, after that , went changi to boyfriend workplace to take his pay fees. Shittos, we smell, we didnt bathe, and it was 2pm plues when we reached boyfriend workplace. Sempoooi. Serious, everyone , i repeat, every single one of them look at us, withour fishing rods and this small box to put the fishes. Boyfriend workplace i the kind of inside territory buildings where cargo's and machinery items are all over the place. So, people sometimes tend to think that we're lost in the industry. Yeah, but still. i hate them staring at me like gundu.

So next, here i am. Seee, im done now. hees.

C u all in my next update.