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25.5.09 03:07

Haiyahs. Kechoing barhs.

Dont seem to know what to say.

Hmms.

Oh ya, Sunday went out with Alamak-ians.

Randomly i dont even know why.

Went out with bestie qida,STG & BBB ( baby boy besar).

We chatted at 3.00pm and plan for 1 hours until everything is settled.

Wanted to go Causeway point to catch a movie but ended up went to town instead because i got bored with causeway point. every single day see that building. wah piang.

Get ready and STG fetch me from marsiling Mrt with qida in his car and met BBB at The cathay.

Due to sengket me and qida thought of going to makan nasi ayam near the cathay but so sudden BBB and STG wanted to eat at Mack jack cafe. baekk. Peh mahal. lol. Then we got to know that STG treat us. we spent $85 there at mack jacks. So expensive sia?

Then went down to the cathay , BBB already bought us ticket which cost nearly $40.

We wanted to buy Some nachos and popcorn meals and BBB pid for us.

Which cost around $15. We watched night at the museum 2 between. Fucking Awesome!

Then we headed down to kedai kopi mahligai manis and ate this sotong stuff and the rest for about $30 i guess. OMG. Me and qida fork out $0 for today.

Total expenditure for 4 person today:$170.

Which means , $42.50 per person.

I still cannot believe that STG treat us that much. Omg.

Thank you STG. Your a great brother & BBB too. ilyg!

Boyfriend is working today. Pity him very much.

He works at this samsung company.

Whereby u have to make hanphone.

Packaging.

His been working from 6pm till now.

& will end his work at 9am.

SO long sia.

D, I miss you.

24.5.09 01:11

Shut up you asshole. haaah.
Hello , So damn tired right now.
I dont even have the energy to count the stars , ok fake cos my sky dont have starts right now.
Gosh, school, dont have to say lah ok. normal dok.
Ndp, stress ah stress, tired lyke hell u now.
Being a dancer performing for 3 minutes song. its fucking tough. u need patience man.huhu.
My family are perfectly normal.
Ella and girl girl getting bigger and bigger by age. But still KUDUT by body size. Gosh.
My kucing soo sekeping lah... haiyah!.
ok lah.
dats all.

22.5.09 01:13

Heees.
It's been ages since i blog.
Yes , i know.
haaahs.
Well, life is perfectly normal right now.
Im happy with the way i am.
I guess there's nothing to say anymore?
Oh wait, i will be very busy.
Starting from friday, saturday.
no time for fun stuff.
exam around the corner.
Fuck, i think im gonna fail one subject lah.
Thanks to all the MC's from the doctors.
haha.
toodles, chauchicken.

20.5.09 01:38

Yes.

Im sorry for not updating.

Seems like there's no readers?

Haiyah.

So, The past few days been busy with people.

This two days, had an MC.

Tired lorh.

Going back to school today.

Haiyhs, tired baaarhs.

C u when i C u.

Toodles.

17.5.09 00:52

NDP.

Was so damn tiring. Reached around 10.00am due to some reasons. Practise till 12.30 and off straight to Kranji camp using School bus. There, practise till death at the mass hall. Was supposed to practised at the parade square but the whether just make our day by pouring some water on the ground. Went Auditorium and had some Briefing to do. Too much conflicts going in and out. just hate it lah k. Stop it egoish people.Then its time for the costume measures. Poooof. The blablabla home to ITE SIMEI. Gish, all the saturdays are fully booked by my NDP practise. Sorry Weekend nightlife, i may no longer be with you until August 9. Muaaah! Even fridays have practices, haiyah!

TAMPINES

Meet Boyfried at his house with his mum and wandi. Rest for a while and took a bath. After that ate Sweet sour fish which indra dad cooked for the family. Indra mum put the fish aside just for me maybe because she's scared im gonna be hungry when i reach their house. How sweet of her mother. Then we crack jokes along the way about the Jaring stuff. Indra,me, wandi went off to indra's grandma house to give her some fish . Randomly, they're cousin house is right next to them. Good lah kan. Lol. So, reached there, His grandma and granpa saw me. Then went to another house which is right beside his grandparents house, sit for a while, his uncle and aunty saw me, his small cousin saw me, his kakak sedara saw me. Then went off and lepak at pondok. Lepak with his another 2 sedara's again. So yeahh. His Mom,grandma,grandpa,adik sedara,Kakak sedapa, qayyum, adik sedara, aunty,uncle. SO , i know 10 people in his family in one day. baeeeek!

Overall, I miss my boyfriend, enough we just met.

It seems that i only know the guy in this picture name : Rushdi.

I forgotten her name. So sorry.

15.5.09 10:31

So sorry for the long lost update.

I'm at school right now. Serious lah.

I know, im getting more lazier this day.

So, continue from the last post ...

Wednesday

Came to school as usual, latecomers. haaahs. Then proceded to Napha test. I hate napha test please. Failed 3 sections. Im getting fatter lah. Huhu. Running 2.4km , was ok though. Huhu. After the whole stupid test which suppose to end at 4 but ended up finished at 5.30, i met my boyfriend. Went to harboufront centre and ate our Favs Nasi ayam. All time favourite lah kan. What to say. So, went of to outram to buy Mom's stuff and by the time we reach bugis, i was so time tired. Muscles cramp all over. My feet cannot tahan. But since it's my monthsary, i have to give in or so called endure the whole journey lah. For boyfriend sake. haha. So, boyfriend bought his jeans and his Shirt while i bought a cup of longan juice. haha. Wtv. Back home, sleepy. cannot tahan. sleep.

Thursday.

Late for school as usual. Went to Crn class. Role play. Went off with meimei.Went home , did nothing. Best friend cursed came at 10pm, do his stupid art stuff. lols. Then suddenly, Chomel ( Neighbour cats), came inside the house without our notice and fought with ella. Was busily watching Bandidas with bestfriend when i get a small heart attack hearing ella meowing like hell. I stopped them at the kitchen and u know what happen? so may BULU aka Furr on the kitchen floor. I beat chomel on her buttock and told her nOT to come her again. Ella hurt herself on her right leg. I think she's ok by now. Luckily i stopped them, or else i think there would be a wrestling federation for cats in my house. shiitos. Best friend went home around 1am+.I slept at 2. so yah.

Oh yes between, My Class advisor called me, He asked me about my attendance and stuff, i thought he wanted to give me a debar letter or 2nd warning letter, but he mention it. I hope he dont give me all this unwanted letters. Cos, my momma gonna scream at me like SCREAMO KID screaming on a microphone. Riiiiight..

Friday
Today, i realise that i have to be waken up at 5.30am because it took me 2 hours to actually step out of my bed. No wonder im always late for school. Office was ok though. Now, crn, finished lyeena role play. SO ya, after this i'll be having my Ndp lessons and confirmed skip CCA. lol, tired sia. If I'm still in the good mood, maybe i'll be meeting boyfriend. If only lah kan.
So, tomorrow, NDP again until 5pm. Then out with Boyfriend to watch motocross at somewhere around town. Idk. huhu.

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13.5.09 09:35

yes, i know.

Happy 4th Monthsary Mr shahindra and Ms Sahira.

Huhus.

Well, didnt do much actually.

Yesterday, didnt came to school the whole day.
Plan to actually took an Mc but thanks to polyclinics it was closed exactly 4.30pm.

Riiighhht.

So, went off meeting boyfriend. chat chat chat.

Went outram wanted to buy mom stuff again, but ended up it's out of stock.

sueey- day sia.

then went to chinatown for no reason.

haaaahs.

We were lost.

That time, was the first time i went in to a sex shop.

serious sia, jakonn. Lols.

so, blablabla.went home by bus.so yah,
Today, Skipped Cah and OSa lesson. Going after 12. shit lah, my gas stove got no more gas. Was Halfway frying fish and steam jagung sudeenly pooof!. thanks ehh!

Going Napha test then meet boyfriend later.

Till then...

12.5.09 04:23

Today.

All class were cancelled and replaced by Sbm project.

We gained money, around $1 plus plus. Not bad?

Each one received back their $3.70.

I wasted $30 for cab fair In and out.

Thank you Baldi, lols. Now boyfriend started calling me Minah baldi.

What the hack sia.

I still remember this msg , he said " mi, u bawak beg kan?, u cuba letak baldi tu kat blakang bag u, confirm mcm Turtle". Cibei. thanks eh.

Overall everything was ok.

So, back home. Chatted with grandma. She started her Complains again. Haah, but this time lesser. Thank you. So msged boyfriend. The accidentally slept at 6pm. Woked up around 1opm+, chat2. Watch tv. Eat.

Then at 1.40am started changing blogskins and all.

yes, ive changed my blogskin. Like hell sia i tell you. Stressful. If i were to be given One hour to do this Blog Exams ( if there is anyway) , i would sure Fail one sia. haha.

Ok watever. It's not fully done yet. It's under construction.

So yeah, hope you readers like it.

A day more till 4th Monthsary.

Oh ya, happy 1 Monthsary to Shahlyeena

Happy 3rd Anniversary Qida bestie!

11.5.09 03:49

Slept at 4am Yesterday.

We talk lyke holly shyt.

After repeating him again and again about the past mistakes that we've done,

His been not himself for that hour itself.He started crying and hugging me so tight. It's the first time that i saw him feel so down,.He know all of this wasnt all his mistakes, but he put all the blamed to him.Im so sorry, its not my intention to hurt you alot. I love you so much. I promised that i wont make you cry again, but you cried on that history night. I know, small matters can make us be so far apart, making us away from each other. Im trying not to complain, not to make myself unhappy for everything that you wanna do in your life It's agreed that we're not gonna control each other in any way.But i hope at that point of time, you would try to listen to me more closely instead of hearing.

Im sorry my dear for hurting you once again. It just hurt me when you cried.

Yes, I'm not that strong,fierce,tomboy girl anymore. I've change. Yes i once regret, but not now. Cos i never feel that love before. Being with him is an New Adventure. I can't regret that. I know, its my choice chosing him as my boyfriend. Im moving on, moving forward, i aint no me nomore. Cos im going on for the better me. Trust me.

Woked up at 12pm with boyfriend.Boyfriend Mcm pahamsz Wanna wake up at 8am. (y)Talk talk talk chat chat chat. Boyfriend wwent home around 3pm.

Slept till 5pm.Woke up, do some stuff.8pm lepak at 846. normal.

People, ive got a twin. Haikel his name.

Scorpio, holly cow his a Magician sial, must see must see his magic and his a Dj of course.My inspiration? Yes he is of course. Very Up to standard people.Enough already

Ate crab after going back home.Im getting fatter people.serious.

You , stop putting me into Dilemma. Your hurting my boyfriend little bit by bit. Worst, your making me hate you more. I aint your laydee, and between you and me, it's been wayyyy over for a year now. So stop Giving me your PUSPA attitude. I dont mind if my friends support you, you are nothing to me. Your just a normal friend which i hangout with. Stop giving me your good deeds cos it wont change my mind of leaving my boyfriend and comeback to you. No.

I wont, that getting back together thingy, will never happen. With or Without Shahindra. Get it?. I made my choice. It's yours now, You may exit from my heart now.

Over every boy that i know. I choose him. I made my choice.

10.5.09 01:57

Hello once again.

I woked up around 12pm.

Having the most irritating hour that i had.

Brother kept on nagging and nagging about cleanin the kitchen stuff and all.

Such a fuckup lah.

So talk to Hizam for about 1 and a half hours.

Talking about the dance prac that my new crew prac at city hall just now.

Plus , nursing lessons and animal taker.

About what diesease , killed cat, authority. watever lurh.

So then clean the kitchen.

Boyfriend came.

Talk talk talk, chat chat chat.

ate french fries and wedges.

Watch tv.

Mom and dad went home.

Talk talk talk chat chat chat.

Went out at 8pm. bought some stuff for mothers day.

Boyfriend bought his momma a keychain with her name on it at gift a name and i bought mummy a a boquet of flower with a purple bear on it. Buy some papers at popular, coincidentally met kechique ( wal's jiwe) and superman others which idk who lah.

Then meet brother at taxi stand..

pooof.

Mom and dad came with dad's bus.

Went jurong.

Take cousins and makciks and pakciks.

Then went Jurong west. WEST SIDE LAH SIAL.

Dunnow what we do there.

Smoke eat talk

sent aunties and uncles home.

Then go home.

Boyfriend slept my house.

Take some stupid pictures which im so not gonna post it today.

Lazy lah.

went home first, almost kena caught.

K diam.

Then 12am , gave mom her present.

She was so glad, she HUGGED me. Riiiiigghhhht...??!!

Obviously she couldnt hugged my bro cos he's out tonning.

or else she will hugged him by then. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

So..

Yeah.

Here am i.

Again.

With my boyfriend.

Im fine with him now.

KAU DIAM SUDAH.

9.5.09 07:47

After all shits that had happen to me, im proud of myself that i stood very strong for myself. Shits.

Boyfriend

I told him this;

"u, ive got something to say, its up to u ti listen to me or not about the control stuff.You are big enuf to make ur own decision.

I dont want to force u or anything.

It doesnt mean tha i forgive u,but it just that i cant forget what u had hurt me alot.

I know this a small thing but i just dont know why i always cry for u through the nite when u did just one small mistake.

Maybe care for u n love u so much..N its my mistake for doing that.

Because i know when i loose u, im gonna be in a high emotional state,i just hope u understand how i am now.

I'm trying to control myself but i just cant take it anymore.

I want to make your heart hurt alot.

I want to hurt u so much until u gave up on me.

But i dont want to hurt u cos i now, that u gonna be so down.

I'm Sorry, my words may hurt u.

But its just the fact n i dont want to lie to u no more.

If u cant accept what i told u

then maybe we could nid a time off."

He knewed about his mistakes and His ready to make our relationship better.

He said;

"Hi,mrnin..

First to first i have 2 except wat ur decision is an i mengaku i bersalah..

Kalau u rasa yang hati u saket abeh ape perasaan i?

Walaupun hati i harus tabah, i terpaksa melalui semua ini.

Kerana cinta i yang kukuh dan iklhas i akan tempuh semuanye..

I faham perasaan u, pernah ke i tak sesekali2 perhatikan u an faham perasaan u slamak ini..

I dun nid a tyme off an i can accept watever u said 2 me.. dun u worry abt dat.

U sikernya ada kata2 yang terkasar atau u rasa salah, sila tegur..

kerana tegur akan membuat seorang berfikir an ubah cara hidup seseorang"

.... & i hope what he said to me is all real

Today.

Torn with TNX.

Zie,zack,shahrul,nitty,nadzhirah,Rahman,nana,wani.

went home aroudn 7+am.

Fucking sleeping.

Im going to sleep now.

Please stop making me feel so guilty. I dont want this anymore.

Go on with anyone else. Im not yours. my heart is taken. pls..

7.5.09 20:48

INTRO
I just dont seem to understand people feelings nowdays.
They tend to get mad , get easily emotionless.

Gosh. Reading people blogs really turn my EMO mood on.

Too much of Relationship problems, family problems, friends problems, paparazi problems, best friend problems, scandals problems, lie problems.

As for me, same goes around. Having some difficulty trying to understand my boyfriend feelings & trying to understand friends feelings. I wonder why im always the one whom always get chosen by people to hear their stories. Their stories are like 10 times much much more than my stories i guess. Some people said im a good listener. Yes, maybe i am, thank you for the compliment. But sometimes i just feel that it is really unfair when people tryna talk to me about their stories when i myself having the same problem as theirs.Well, maybe other people need more attention than me. I could understand that. Pity me. Boye2.

=_=".

To whom who think that you are the one.

Stop bothering my life please.You dont know me yet.Im not trying to show my full me because i know that it's gonna hurt you like a tofu hitting a rock, or else i'll be striking boiling words from my mouth to you by now. I may be a quiet person, trying to understand your feelings but that doesnt mean that you could just shoot me like that. Looks who's standing right now, are you better than me? No. Your not even a leader on your ground. Trying to hold on to someone else rather that believing in yourself. Stop pulling people down. They're rich and you are making them poorer, just like you. They hate you, they said it already, but it seems that you just put on a earpiece to cover up whatever shits that they throw to you. Common, your a simple person and having a normal life. Why must you act to show people that your in the top level? Again, your using people. Stop it. Stop that act immedietly. It hurts people more than you could hurt yourself. Give yourself some manners, no,not manners like being rude to parents or friends but being dishonest to yourself. You dont worth what you wear. cos what you wear is all a lie. Trust me, my patience level is rising very slowly, dont let it boiled so heavily that one day you realise that no one is talking to you & giving you what they have to make you feel such a high class.

Boyfriend

You once said it that you dont mind me controlling you. Yes, it's been 3 months plus now and i never did control you in any way. Once, i told you not to smoke that much, but u just simply give me that excuses that you had so that you can smoke whenever you want. yes,i can understand that its hard for you. Yes, i forget about everything on that day. Today, when you said your gonna play some soccer games with your mates, i told you not too because i remembered the times that you were hit by some fools whatever shits on your legs and you were sent to the hospital for observation. It was a big blue black on your leg and i worried it too much. When i said no to you when you wanted to play your soccer games with your friends , you were already giving me your unwanted voice. You give me excuses again and said that everyone play the soccer game. You easily said to me " i know you care for me", but do you care for me? Do you care about my heart, my feelings, my controls? No. You are too selfish by your ownself that i have to accept everything you said. I may be quiet but u just dont simply see that my heart cries for you. I care for you and i dont want you to play that game because im scared that it gonna hurt you again. You barely play soccer and it hurts me when you hurt yourself. You said "it's ok" but it's not. Where's the control that you said that you dont mind getting some? I dont see it. I dont feel it. I know you dont like controls but sometimes you just need to push out some bad air from yourself and let me be the good air inside you. If i tell you now, it's still no use. Because you never promise me that you won't be playing soccer today, no point, You would be playing the soccer games right now happilly every after. Break the leg. I hope the soccer game break your legs.

ENDING

Im becoming Emotionless now. I dont like it. Blog, do you love me? I know that you love because you're are the one and only die hard fans of listening ears listening to my complains, my everyday stories, my saddening times . How i wish you were real. I would be laying, crying to you of all this shits that are thrown behind me.

I 'm cheerful in the outside, but i'm hurtful in the inside.

6.5.09 01:23

Get out from the Bishan building around 4pm.

Went to junction 8. Bought some sushi.

Went home.

Ate maggi's and sleep all the way.

Woked up, fried some chicken and eggs.

Family eat.

Lepak.

I've change my background skin between. huhus.

Im tired of using other people's skins lah.

Do my own skins. much better.

Oh yeah, chatted with Udi, friends from NDP.

hahas. kecooh nia.

Boyfriend miss me truly, i dont even know why. We've been meeting like very single day still he has that miss emotions. Crazy. Will not be meeting him till saturday on sundar. Wanna have rest for this week.

Secondary school midyear started already, gosh, miss the old days. Good luck too all my secondary school mates espeacially Best friend Firdaus and Ain. Go Best friend! Go best friend! you can do it! You can Do iT!!!

See his stupid face. like chee-bye. heees.

5.5.09 08:45

Shiitos.

Ive been reading some people blogs and it just came up to my mind that i've forgotten to publish for yesterday post.

haha.so sorry.

Yesterday, i did nothing.

I came to school only for SWP lesson. yes, very good. After school went to meet boyfriend as his mom and himself had some sickness issues. Go back around 6pm and sleep all the way till 12pm. Talked to boyfriend and brother for a while. Then slept again at 2am. So now, here i am, in school =). 8am lesson maan! wooho! record for this week.

ATTENDENCE IS IMPORTANT FOR ITE's.

Yes, ive been loving this guy over here for almost four month now. haiyah. I still remember this one momment when im so bored at home, i decided to read my blog from the first post till the last. Gosh. Ton's of ex-boyfriends post. Well, now i know about myself. When im in love, i will always talk about him. Whoever he is. For this time now, is shahindra bin SaLim. liked i said before, it's been ages since i touch third monthsary, okay2, it was so two years back.I'm still fine right now and i hope i will. His the best i've got and i would have to give my best to him too.Yes, we didnt had any "long fights" or "quarelling" or anything for this past four months but we did had some "misunderstanding" btw one and another. I just dont like it when someone just talk bad about ira and indra. Really. i know that indra and i treat is other differently like any other ordinary couple would d0. For example, we trust each other so much that we dont mind if he/i go out with friends either girl/boy/man/lady. You may find it stupid as you would think that he gonna play me or he is using me or watever things lah. But that is just what we are. how we interact. how we understand each other. i love him and he love me. (y).

Let's just see what will happen to me and him next.

4.5.09 00:29

Hello once again.

It's been days since i touch my laptop.

So, Friday, went family day.

Saturday, went to ndp.

Hangout with some bunch of friends.

haaahs.

Then slept at qida cribs.

Sunday morning, boyfriend came to qida house.

Chat chat chat.

Was doing qida project, painting stuffs.

Then boyfriend suddenly paint my face. Thanks eh.

Chronic guy.

SO went off ate at lot 1 with qida and boyfriend.

Went off to tamp.

Hangout with boyfriend friends.

Went off around 10pm.

went home,

Mum bought me a book Called "snow white and the seven dwarfs" which cost her $5 for that. Can eat Mcdonalds sia using tha $. haaah.

She thought i love snow white , but of course, she's wrong. It's cinderella mom. Haah. And she was like "oohhh ya, yang pumpkin tu". haha. I was like, yeah.

But it's ok. I appreciate her effort.

His my love.

1.5.09 01:24

So, hello once again.

today went to school as per normal.

12pm went straight to OSA.

Too much erors to be done with lah.

OSA stressful. OK, i hate osa. go!So, after that CRN, done over with the roleplay.

Not so bad indeed.

Hang around at junction 8 to buy lyeena rings.

went off to meet boyfriend, ive was lost in tampines cause i took 58 instead of 59. luckily boyfriend know the place lah. then meet him. Ate at tenderbest, long time nia never eat tenderbest. Then lepak2 at my house, boyfriend having a fever today. so sadded. 11pm boyfriend went home, dye mum hair after and here i am blogging. so yeah.

Tomorrow, family day, will be sleeping,waking,bowling,pooling,watching movies,eating and many more... yeah, so stay tunned. My butt is aching alrady lah. cannot take it.

It's been a long time since we took pictures.

Oh well, His my crazy partner. enjoy.

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