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30.3.09 23:50

From left: Cad, Naz, Elly, Esah, Aini

Today,
What i did was Hang Out with some Bunch of Ite class IOK friends.

Went To Sisha @ Bugis. From Afternoon Till Nite. Yeah,

So Thats about it actually. Lol.

Elly Pictures Conquered half of my memory space. haha

Joking.

So the Sisha Was Lime green.

Naz hate that colour.

Too bad, thats my fav colour.

After eating At this Popular place.

Elly nak gigit tetek naz, gian.

Sooo candid

Naz , Elly , Aini

We're AY babay

I dont understand.

Naz, isap sisha pakai Hidung?

Style BARU.

Naz Preetay

Nad, She doesnt Smoke AT ALL.

Lyke i said, Ay babay.

Ohh esahh.

Her First tyme Sedoott.

Starting from here,

It's all elly's the nini darl.

Fyuhh.. at last , elly's pic done.

So, here is me and her.

Nad And Aini. haha

Lastly,

I love sisha,

I mean, Lime green sisha.

01:24

Good Nite people,

So , as for tday, around 8.30am Went to Marsiling Blk 302 for an Event named marsiling big jog ? I guess so. As i am one of the Youth supporters of Rc Zone 5 , i have to dedicate my Precious time to this Boring Event. heees. For mummy sake actually. So, The partner whom im working with, which i dont seem to know whats his name is , started with a very energetic attitude. Hack care. We were told to do this game thingy, its some kind like a pool table , which have three balls, and three holes, and this three balls have to go inside this three holes thingy. Yess, please do not think the other way ROUND. So , the whole morning i was just spending time with the pool table. Dots. That Pic up there, Is my partners wife unamed and daughter mayble.

Thats my Step brother.

We have grow up in each other side for 9 years now.

His 21.

So after that was Picnic-ing With the Family.

Went to East coast with a total of eleven people.

4 teenagers, 1 old citizen, 3 adults, 2 toddlers and 1 baby.

Didnt bathe there since i didnt bring extra clothers. Horrible man.

So, i didnt have time to actually give my own free EMO time as i have to take care of this 2 toddlers for that whole event. Shittos!

huhu.

That dude up there ,

Is my Alien brother.

Haaah. He's 18 this year.

He shares the same room with me.

haha.

Thats My Cousin,

Named as Shima, attached.

She's 15 Btw.

This is not a Propaganda.

This is the proof of how busy i am being a Nanny of this 1 toddler,thaqif. Urhhhh!

Then around 8pm plus met Boyfriend at Woodlands.

Lepak at this place somewhere and talk the whole damn story to him.

He also told me his story. He was busily Kendarat-ing at Tampines today.

So many things happen to Him and all i did was just nodding and trying to understand whats his reaction is. Lols. Eye contact, facial expressions,body language, Tone of voice. Ohh, this is soo CRN. khoorkh.

Reached home around 11.45pm and watch stomp the yard while eating 3 tulangs and 5 bread. Yes indeed, i was hungry at that time. hehe.

So thats all.

29.3.09 01:11

So yeah,

Meet boyfriend at my crib.

Went out at 6pm and meet andy there.

Celebrate Wan birthday and left around 10pm.

Lepak with boyfriend near his place and went back around 11.30pm.

Reached home at 12+, coincidentally met najib at interchange.

So yeah, still talking to boyfriend now. haaahs.

today, is our history.

28.3.09 11:05

Good morning blog readers,

haaahs. Well, can i say that i dont have any blog readers anymore now?

Urh, craapness.

So, as per normal, things are getting busy now i dont have that much time to update this bloggie boogie thingy. heees.

Supposingly went out Picnic-ing with some of my ex-schoolmates But ended up being cancelled because one is busy and another one is sick. Sadded. You know why? because ive got to know that it was cancelled 15 minutes before i step out of the house. idiot. Arrghh. I thought of having fun , playing with the sand, suntaning or watever thing there is over there but urh, Weekend spoiltment. Luckily there was a backup plan, Meeting boyfriend to go his

friend , wan , birthday. Yeah, and god i hope that he wont cancelled this thang or else im gonna be like a hulk today. shittos!.

So, the past few days have been busy for me and yeah. So Thursday i went to floorball and hell yeah it was so cool. Selected five people in my team, deffinetly good players of course, and all i can say that they are pretty good in defending and attacking.Haha, Yet i was lonely that time. But who cares, i enjoy watching Them playing floorball like dogs and cats. Im proud to say that I improved very much on my floorball skills. So hell yeah, so went to grandma house and lepak till death there. Sleep there for one nite and my omg body give the the body aches. Thank you, matress.

So friday nite celebrate dad birthday with a small cake and 2 pizza's from pizza hut. Can i say ella and girl girl miss me so much? haha.

ok watever lah sei.

SO yeah, thats about it.

Thats kennet. Aini's little kitten.

26.3.09 01:40

Did Nothing today.

Just Hanging around at my crib.

Went to Romba Class.

Yeah so ate Mcdonalds.

And so here i am.

Ohh, miss boyfriend so much.

So weekend plans would be

Saturday, meeting Abg An ,chomel,ika,Ida , going sentosa.

Then Meet boyfriend to go his friends ( Wan) birthday party.

Then Sunday Family day.

Will be celebrating dad's bdae.

So yeahh, thats about it.

Go through my boyfriend profile just now.

Omg, i love this pic so much.

omg. This is when he was 20,21?lol.

Sweet oi, sometimes, how i wish i could be his girlfriend when he was this age.

Aww, busted sia. HAHA. wtv.

Boyfriend, peroot tolong maintain pls pls.

haha.

tata.

24.3.09 20:37

Hell yeah. So, Yesterday went to Senja aka Bukit Panjang to Practise for the competition.

Like hell i'll tell ya. Very very tiring. huhu. So around 3.45pm arrived at grandma's house and lepak till death gossiping with Mey . shima . Kyeena. yeaah. So, around 7pm left from the house and met boyfriend. Ate at cofeeshop nearby and went to marsiling mrt to meet Mom and dad. Dad drive us home with of course 12 packets of sheng shiongs thangy. Carried them all the way till level 4. Huhu. My house of course. So, Mum cooked pasta for supper and we ate it. durh. Watch some movies and go through my family album. lols. i know. chronic. Then we talk and talk until we fall asleep. So yeah, that was about it. Today, did nothing but just SLEEP. yeah, was suppose to go to floorball but damn im so tired.

I always want you to be with me.

23.3.09 00:37

Ouhkay.

So, where do i start today.

Oh yeah, woked up around 12 plus and my crib's suddenly became like a library.

No one's at home except for the Two cuttey cats ella and girlgirl.

Wake up from beauty sleep and boyfriend called me up.

Talk shits on the phone and put it down.

Then Went to kitchen and decided to cook Nasi goreng.(i use cursed recipe btw =) )

My refrigerator was totally full of nothing. So hell yeahhh, nothing else to cook.

Watever shits happens next all i do was watching tv and waste my time watching these PON*****Kh harum sundal malam. Haha, i remember i accidentaly say Harum suardalam. haha. ok. so, meet boyfriend around 5pm and went straight to queensway shopping centre. After getting so many shit things. Went to eat at This coffeeshop. So cheap. Do you believe that mee goreng cost only $2.50. cheapp kan? nice also. so, went home. so yeaahhh.

Boyfriend went tonning with his best friend called Lynn?

i mean, His packed his things and straight away meet lynn.

Of course he asked my permission. All i said Ouhkay. Actual fact, im jealous. Of course, who's not jealous? durh. I mean, at first this lyn invite him to supper and at last ended up tonning? weeeirdo. I just dont wanna say things but i really feel very uncomfortable. really really uncomfortable. wtv lah.

PS: Aku jealous lah! eeeeee!

22.3.09 02:15

Baju aku koyaaak.

That much Crazyness.

Haha, nuckle heads.

Elfie love this pic so much.

Dunnow why. haha,

naaahh amek kau elfie.

Yes, today went out with bestfriend cursed .

So, Where do we go again?

Oh yeah, urh, Went to outram park to buy my mum pill thingy then went straight to marina square,so, there's a runway show in the middle of that stupid marina square brought to you by ESPIRIT. dots. So, waited for the runway show to start for fucking half and hour and guess what? The one's whom shall i say the VIP or INVITED people get a free flow of 42andbelow liquor plus 7up of course. what the fuck siaaa. coool seiii. wahhlau.How i wish i was one of the VIP's, but urh, no. You have to buy two things from ESPIRIT then u can go in there , i thiink so, or watever shyt lah. So lazy to watch the whole show, went to eat at LJS, yum2. The pineapple cheese pie is so yummy, u guys gotta try! so, walk2 and accidentally met Najibbone and wifey, haaah, Elfie. So, they were planning to watch the movie dunnow what i forgot already. lols. so, went esplanade and najib and elfie decided to join us before watching their scary movie. And there gooes, a whole lot of picture. haha. so just scroll down and see.

hehe, please mind my broken english sentences, im so sleepy right now and im trying to make the correct words for the correct sentences. what am i talking about? wtv.

Couple day out. haha.

all seventeen.

Tgk elfie, mukaaa. sadded. haha.

Elfie And Najib.

Couple for 1 year plus plus.

I dont remember how many shots we took.

Inilah kawan-kawanku.

Lastly,

i love my bestfriend.

20.3.09 22:37

Hey babay.

Hello once again.

Best friend Fir hangout at my crib today.

Did nothing . A little bit of cooking. I didnt know that Best friend can cook nasi Goreng. cool?yeaah i know. so, watch tv and gossip about the people around us. huhu. watever.

i think my relationship is getting sweeter and sweeter. ily boyfriend.
ku syg Dia

14:17

Its been Tiring these few days and i hardly touch my laptop ever since.
Yes, again, im sorry for the MISSING post these few days. Well, ive been busy lately, or shall i say, will be busy on weekdays and will only be free on weekends. Shyts.
Today, last day of school, and i did not attend the whole. So saddening i cant go out with my boyfriend to celebrate his cousin Qayyum birthday. So sorry. I have to stay at home since i did not attend school. So, the only way to get out from these boredom at my house is just Blogging and sleeping. huhu. Ive been sleeping very late these week and its not because i hang around or watever shyts but i've been putting myself into activities. Shyts.
I miss boyfriend really really much. Even though we just met a few days ago, but miss him like crazy. I hope sunday im going to meet him.
Deffinetly, Best friend have been missing me. Lols.
So sorry , but im just so busy.
Ahh, Im sooo going to rest at home these three weeks.
Exams/test was Okie. i guesS? I just hope i pass. hehe. (y)
okie, im tired now.
bestfriend coming to my house now.
tata.

16.3.09 22:54

Whaddup?

Yeah,

Again, i think im gonna change my mind about repeating the whole week story thingy in one shot. I dont think so ya'll gonna read the whole long post anyway, so let's just say i cut it down from one post to one post. Easy for you? i know.

So , Today is a day where everyone let out their negative character's to each other. I just dont wanna say but u can see it for youself at ITE BISHAN room C3-02? idk. So, as per normal , i was late for OFC class and Mr leow is seriously conplaining about my attendance.Wth. Next came SBM and as normal, HEE didnt came to class. Lastly, I skipped SWP.. continued dancing with Ay-babay team. Until things happen. So yaa....

Back at home , talk for an hour with grandma and mom about things like Marriage life and Boys and Mens and whatever else. Mummy told me she wnat me to learn this Accounting course at BMC academy. Random? I mean she suddenly pop out this coursed to me. Weird?

So, Around 6+ slept at woke up at 9pm+ , then again , talk nonsense with grandma and mum. Talking about my boyfriend and my ex and my grandma. The weird thing about my grandma is, when someone came to her and asked her how's she doing, she tend to reply back. As if she knew that person a long time but when she was asked by me who is that someone, she will always say"i dont know lah, she talk and i talk also lah, She happy i also happy, so many people, i dont know which is which." ( in malay version of course). lols, what can i say, old people. haha. so, Ate some rice and pooof im here.

boyfriend decided not to meet me today as he want to spent his time with his friends the whole day. yeahh. He's at fish pond at pasir ris with his friend now, Fishing . So, yeah, here again, ALONE.

i dont quite remember when was this but urh, yeah, this was before

OSA class. Like ive said, there's different people here. There's aysha,nad,zu,elly,naz,me,mirah,lyeena,aini.

so, yeaahh, thats my Malay IOK girls.

I dont know how am i suppose to say these but we're getting closer each and everyday. Haha.

One big FAMILY.

Btw, Amirul is so not one of our girls, so just ignore that small little head in the background or top middle section of the picture.

Guess this miss IOK.

i know, so easy to spot who is that right?

Just, keep Your answers to yourself.

haaaah.

im getting fatter and fatter sia. hehe.

14.3.09 00:33

Yes. Im a so damn tired right now but im trying to force myself to give this post a shot.

SO, today, went out with boyfriend for our 2nd monthsary. Went to Tampines and take a stroll walk at century square, boyfriend bought us couple rings which cost more than expected . OMG. i know, how sweet? I know ive lost the first month ring thingy but seriously, what he bought was expensive. So, bladibla, went to Tampines Teh TArik and bought myself Tissue chocolate and himself roti prata.. So, SHOCKING MODE IS, there was this bunch of people started to stare at us like one freaking kind when we step into the cofeeshop. Guess which group? Butch and Les! haha, My boyfriend greatest Enemy. lols. He was so fcuked up that momment. So while eating, came this couple sat beside us , and holly cow this woman , was not like a woman, ok how can i say this, u know this SUSUK thing when if u langgar peraturan then u face all pecah and mcm kulit babi terkeluar2, yahhh, she's deffinetly like it. she was so hideous, i pity her alot, I just dont like to judge. ohh crap. I know things has been so slow for me to blog this days and i apologise for the late post. Zaangs!, so, wtf. Im gonna tell you the whole story for the whole week in the next post, so stay tuned! it's gonna be a long one. Get ready ya? hahas.

13.3.09 01:32

hi.

im tired today.

c u on the next post babaY.

ps: it's my 2nd monthsary today. so ya....

zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

10.3.09 11:45

Random please. Yes.
i dont understand why im in the critical mode right now.
What i meant was, this month. im gonna have finance problems.
Seriously, every little thing now cos higher than expected. I cant see myself eating at Swensen's anymore. Deffinetly very rare to see me in Mcdonalds and KFC or anywhere else. Cofeeshop and fork and spoon is already the same price as Mcdonalds. I mean, i just dont want to waste my money just like that. Because of taste, i dont think so im gonna waste $10 everyday. Economic has become in a critical state now and everybody is struggling with money. Mom's and dad's. Did you guys watch the news at channel new asia at 8+ just now? Over 14 companies have close down due to bangrupt in JAPAN. I mean, if Japan, a manufacture company, could not survive with the economy rite now, how can singapore survive? Random right , i know.
I know its weird that i talk about this stuff, but seriously, everyone has to know.
Very important.
So school is like preety normal and fyuuh, i dont know why Im so tired today. I mean, First class was test. Then second class , there's not teacher. Then Pe(SW), i played takraw and badminton. omg, talking about takraw it reminds me of the old times with my secondary mates. Miss them so much sia sadded! ok, ive been bullied tday.
huhu, im so busy.
weekly plan
Monday:9-3pm
Tuesday:8-4pm
Wednesday: 8-4pm, salsa class: 8-10pm
Thursday:8-4am , Floorball: 5-7pm
Friday:8-12pm, 3m - 5pm(dance)
Saturday: RESERVED FOR FRIENDS
Sunday: RESERVED FOR FAMILY.
tight schedule. so , of any plans, please call me for enquiries.
thanks.

8.3.09 17:03

Yes, im back again yaw.

Well Again spending my whole bloody sunday at home.

Boyfriend decided not to meet me today as he so fucked up, oops, sorry, tired because of the fishing thingy.

Well, im not trying to show off my ego-ish character but by all means im so pissed off right now. A past few days ago he said he's gonna meet me on sunday and he RESERVED me on that day itself. I have other plans too but i cancelled all of them. Now, his telling me his not meeting me. Yes, AH(asshole). Ive been grounded for a week and i thought sunday i can BREATHE in the OUTDOOR OXYGEN but No. i have to put my ASS in this house and dont even have a plan to go out. Seriously, i just dont like it when he changes plan. Just like all of you readers. Shits man. Worst thang, he's happily snooring away right now and me, doing nothing but just STARING at the SCREEN tv. I seriously cant take it anymore. Tomorrow, im gonna go out. Fuck care to anybody.Im not gonna meet him for the week,i wanna let him feel what i feel when he change his plans. who care's? 2nd monthsary this week? i dont think im going out with him. It just hurt me sooo much, even though it just a small fuckup thang. WTH. i feel like going to my grandma's house, but what should i do therE? im seriously booored sia.i seriously do.

Ps: That 10kg cat litter is seriously making my hand weak.

Thanks cat litter, u just waste $12 of my pocket money.

7.3.09 17:08

can i say that im in the boring state right now?

Indeed, Im really really bored. It's a saturday and all i do is just forcing myself to be hyperactive at home. But seriously, it doesnt help me alot. My head is spinning and please , i need to breathe the outdoor air. Feeling like getting out of the house, walk around the singapore streets and just feel the freedom. Too bad, im grounded. Dots[...]. Haaah, Boyfriend is busily FISHING with his dad and guess what? He Overnight too. Ohh, He cant entertain me today. Thats saddening. Oh, what must i do now?, i have enough sleep and spent my whole day watching different shows/movies at HBO/Star movies/MTV and many other channels. oh, i just cant take it anymore. This grounded thing is killing me already. haaahs. Tomorrow, im not sure whether my boyfriend is meeting me, cos he'll be tired by then and he's gonna sleep like a pig. Trust me, calling him through the phone wont help him to wake up from his beauty sleep.

I've still have to do my house work chores and cooking.But im so Lazy right now. Feel like asking mummy to go and buy dinner for us, but its gonna waste her money. She's gonna nagged when she reached home looking at the house fully MESSED, things on the floor , worst, i havent cook yet. haahh. Maybe im gonna cooked later. Mendak lah people.

I just dont know what im feeling right now. Crazy in love? or MNL-ing( malas nak layan)?. haaah. Sometimes i do miss him so much until i want to be with him everytime, and sometimes i just want to get away from him cos he's very irritating. haha. idk. It's like we're bestfriends u know. i dont want to leave him, but sometimes i do. Cos he's so into me and it will make me so into him. haah, im talking crap people, please understand. im bored.

Ella and girlgirl dont even entertain me today. They are busily eating and sleeping the whole day. All they is order-ing me. Now, they're still waiting for their Toilet to be clean up. urhh, They been living in the house for fucking 4 months and all they do is relax and order people and destroy all my household stuff! Not fair, they're so happy go lucky. Then i have to do all the chores for them. They're getting older, they're gtetting nastier and they 're getting soo irresponsible. They're KITTENS F.Y.I.

I just missed the fun i had last time. With My so called "Tnx" group and "s4l" especially. Where are they now? how are they? Did u guys missed me? haah.

School is getting a bit complicating. But overall, its ok. huhu.

Yes, there's still fighthing and quarelling all around the class.

huhus. But that doesnt have to do with me. so, just kept quiet.

I dont wanna know and i dont wanna care.

Just trying to be happy with myself.

Thats all, i dont want you readers to read my boring post anymore.

haaaaah. Enough of entertaing urself reading my post already!

heees.

im taking back my love. ive given u too much.

My blog is COLOURFUL today.

6.3.09 15:31

So sorry for the loong lost post.

Readers, pls tagged me and keep me updated.

Cos , i never knew who's reading or visit my bloog.

Im so lazy to use hit counter. Maybe i'll update it later.

ok so, ive been grounded by who else rather than ms queen bee, huhu.

My mum. Cos that time i went out with indra and "accidentally" reached home late due to some "private talks: we had. Shyts. But its ok, Grounded for a week only, meaning this sunday, i can go out. weeee! wooots. Indra had chop me for the day so urhh, im reserved on that day.

supposingly, this saturday, i have so many plans and invitations from people. But since im grounded right now i cant say anything but just to say sorry for cancelling the plan.

so boyfriend came to my house yesterday. huhus. These days ive been busily doing my SBM project. I mean, there's 7 people in the group but there's not much work there. I had to rearrange and put in more details for the proposal. at last, done by 1 am. And fyuuh.Boyfriend went off around 10pm+, so sorry i didnt entertain u that much dearr. toots. Today, Mr hee show some good impressive reactions towards our proposal, so can i say we pass? i hope our group got A. I mean, ive put in so much hardwork in it. we've gotta have that A. haha, wish me lucK.

soo, Im bored right now? what should i do? i havent cooked nor do housework yet. But im so fucking lazyyy. aiyahhh. Ok, one very famous thing im gonna do now, sleep.heee.

Ok lah, tata people.
Coincidencely Met Yus(Everygreen Sec) , Ain(bEst friend) and Sathish(wdls Sec) today,

3.3.09 22:39

Thanks. There's no Confusion in me now. Im perfectly fine and ready to be the old me now.The one whom i used to fall in love with which claimed to be called blabla and will always be with blabla and will not confuse herself with blibli and try to make my friendship with blibli as comfortable as the old times.Even though blabla dont like it and blibli will persuade me to not get close to each other like the old times cos im with blabla. Blibli doesnt want blabla to have so misunderstanding between me and blibli. sooo, khoooorkhh.

What ive given ya'll to read this last few post was just a Summary of what i felt. Im ok with him, yes, no more "no feelings emotions". I dont need to think about the stupid stuff ive been listening too and trying to make everything right. Let the way be it's way , RIIGHT? So, just a sketch of what ive felt for this friendship and relationship. Who cares? I still will have them both in my life. Ok, its up to their decision. To be with and not to be with.I dont wanna think and make myself feel so damn stress just because of this blibla thingy.

So, i had a serious case just now in school. LPDX class was at student hub and while i was talking to Sarah, my goosebumps kept on popping in and out. And my stomach is aching and serious my Asshole, is seriously hurting me. So, went To the mosque near our school and decided to passmotion. But still, after passmotion-ing, my asshole is still in bad condition. fuck right? i know. You know this feeling when u really felt that someone is fucking your asshole instead of the normal place to be fucked at? yeahh, that feeling. Back to student hub and still feel the pain. Decided to ignore it and play COUNTER STRIKE with hui ming and mei mei. Lols. i know, it's been a few years ive never play counter strike. hehe. so, we were so lost on how too create a room and whether to choose terrorist and counter terrorist. huhu.Then we were like " eh, u which room liao? i number 1 sia, u all where?". haha, then get to know, the boys were playing CS too. IDIOT. thanks ahhh. Then went back to class, do some stupid acts about this edison or dont know this hong ong actor which fuck so many actress. So sian, ive acted as him and fucked lyeena in front of class.Can i say its just a role act? haha.kecooh. Then lyeena become chris brown and pamela became rihanna and we act when chris brown hit rihanna and rihanna shout and comes Jay z and all the stupids stuff. HAHA. LOLOLOL.

Yeah, so went back home and sleept all the way until 8 . Mum called me up and asked me to got sheng shiong with her and dad. I told mum i so tired and mum said nvm and meet her at our so called bukit to take our things. So,reach home after carrying 4 plastic sheng shiong bags in my hands , brother started to make irrtating compliments. seriously, thaat idiot. lol.Sometimes,he just make a fool of himself and laugh by himself. haha, ok, as a sister, i could understand his SIAOness. shyts.

Thats all.

Yours truly,

cad

Attention:It's confirmed that i'll be enjoying my april holiday with my family. Im going GENTING this April 10,11,12. So im unavailable. 13 april unavailabe too, it's going to be my 3 month ann with indraaaaaaag. lol. ok go!.

01:07

So, As for the late evening.Was Raining heavily and went to meet indra at Boon Lay. Went To Taman jurong shopping centre. So damn BORING. haaah, but still went too this Fishing Shop cos indra wanna go there so badly. huhus. so after 15 or half an hour of walking around the fishing shop, went to ate dinner at Fork and spoon. Irritating pls. Then buy cigarrettes. For the how many times or can i say less than 5 times, I lepas beli rokok. haaah. bangga siol. Indra is so proud. Wtf. huhus. So went Jp and walk around. And went to TOY r US. Pooof. We spent more than 45 minutes left. And guess what?

IVE SAW THIS CINDERELLA COLLECTION.

Lyke Fucking OMG?

At last, there's the ONE AND ONLY CINDERELLA.

Without the other Princcess.

OMG! OMG! OMG!!!.

I bought The Shampoo And the Powder.

Im gonna buy the cologne and the Lotion later on. (Y).

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Ok seriously.
im so proud of cinderella cos she has the only collection.

I hate her sticking with snow white and whoever princesses there is.

Stupid editor.

I want cinderella doll can? as if there is one.

lets just say, Even though things were unperfect now, i do realise that i still need him in my life. And i never ever want to leave him nor want him to leave me. Even though there's some attitudes that ive been giving him and shyts and stuff but i seriously dont mean it. I know that he love me so much more than i ever been loved by someone. He's the only one that could understand me soo damn deep that no one else could. He never gave up. I love my dadi. I seriously do. Muarrrcks.
with love,

caderella.

2.3.09 11:38

haaaah. Fucking funny liao. Im at school now having SBM lesson. since its so stuck up and PS: it's very BORING over here, ive decided to check on people BLOG. i mean, being a kepo? for once in a while i guess. Haah. since its been a long time since i look and read at people blogs, today is the day. And omg, so funny characteristic and post all the bloggers have. SO, went to dewen blog and saw these picture of shi shz. HAHA! i really can imagine with shi shz expression asking about the cost of the pizza.. Wahlau, fucker sia dewen. haha,. make me laugh until i go crazy. LOL. OMG.i know u guys wont understand , but just "aahhh" ok can?! let's go. Let's just say blog have become very popular now days and people are starting to throw tantrums at their own blogs. Showing how sad , how angry how emotional they felt after a problem appear. It's a good thing actually. people may Know u more deeply. haaaaahhh. ok cut the crap. Im just bored. This post is seiously not type by me. I mean i type it butnot me me u know? haha. ok i dont what's into me rght now. But, im just crazy. yes, very CRAZY. beware pls. raaaaaawrr. oh well, im going out with boyfiend at 5+ today, go taman jurong. im sooooooo going to blog tonight. heeehs. i think i wanna play bowling with boyfriend today. PLS?

i lost TRACK. Am i still in love with my boyfriend?

ohh yesss, cos he's sill my boyfriend.

haaaa.

sumpah merepek sia Nur sahira. heee.

muah2.

ps: beware of my broken english sentence. HAaaah.

1.3.09 20:21

Stuck up lately.

I seriously dont understand what's happening to me.

I mean, im confused with all these emotions thats been pushing me around at night.

With him OR with him.

Most things changes now and i really cant accept that fact.

Love and friendship and controls and yes and No's and feelings and emotions

and i dont know.

And secrets been let out and feelings are changing and relationshisps are starting to get apart and another feeling come's up but i dont know whether its true. Regret came up next and stressfull and lastly, everything is isnt fair. i just .. HATE EMOTIONS right now.

Long time ago story but it's still a story . And i cant do anything much now.

And he's feelings AND he's feelings too.

And he says i dont mind and he says its's ok.

And i have to touch him and i can't touch him.

Body contact is needed and No body contact is allowed.

U know all these stupid stuff.

urhhhh.

i love him but i love him too.

i want him and i want him too.

And i want everything fairly.

but it seem it doesnt.

i have feelings for him and i too have the feelings for him.

And i've been loving him very deeply that night.

im so confused right na na na.

I dont wanna Feel any more emotion anymore.

caderella

01:13

Well, today went out with best friend, Fir AKA Cursed. Supposingly must meet him at 2pm. But Ended up meeting him at 3pm cos i accidentally overslept. Planned to go Marina barage but seem there's nothing much to do there, we proceeded to town instead. Drop down at Orchard and Oh my god , We seriously dont know how to go to the heerens . haha, so ended up go to whee lock's place and pooof , There goes the rains, So run to the nearest place, Borders, and decided to eat at BURGER KING. Bought rendang meal and sat there for more than half an hour. Next, went borders, and urhh. Seriously ive forgotten where we go. Ouh. far east plaza and peninsula, ok, I seriously wanna buy this bag for $19.90, or $16.90? tetek. i wanna buy!, bitch. haaah!. So, went to esplanade and we talk and talk and talk. Let's say, best friend to best friend talk? huhu. So, So many secrets been let out and secrets will always be secrets. no way im gonna tell u guys. haaah. Then around 9+ went home. And now, we're still chatting.

Ohh, best friend, ur loveeed.

my boyfriend is fine today. heeeeh!

Im lucky Im in love with my bestfriend.
Friendship love people. His A part of my family tree.

with love,
caderella.