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31.1.09 00:21

now.where should i start. well, today, lets just say, school was preety normal and stuff and urh everything was just fine. except for the part when i got so bluur, i mean, today, im very very blur and selenge. Trust me. So go masjid with aini and lyeena, talk about all the stupid stuffs that we know about each other. haha, chronic. Then sat at macdonalds again, chit chit chat and went off aroud 1.20pm. supposingly meet my boyfriend at 1pm sharp at JE but ended up stuck in j8 mcdonalds.haha, boyfriends was seriously mad, i mean not actually mad, but his tones voice was deep deep frustated kinda voice.So, meet him at 2 i guess and we go to our normal place at JE confeeshop. He ate Nasi pataya and i ate Nasi ayam penyek. k after that MNL nak crita then went to West coast park. Kecoh nak mampos. we we're playing the swing thingy went suddenly this family come and join us for fun. WTH. this aunty, picture below was asking me how to jump on the seat. Then after telling her, with HER 5 family members watching me talking to her, she then jump and sat on that thingy , it moved, but moved only HALFWAY. and SADED, no one in the family help her, i have to go all the way to the middle to bring her back. OMG. cibei. But funny lah siak. no fake. i was seriously laughing because their reaction was seriously chronic. The aunty tried then the nephew i think that the nephew husband(IDK) then the brother then this chinese uncle with the age of 30+. haaaah !. kecoh siol. U c, older people also can play this stupid game. Hehe,PS: its like fying fox. hhaa. then we were seriously tired and lepak at the so called water breaker tak menjadi. so, then i started to sing and it started to rain, SUEY sia. haha,so went to the shelter, so suddenly got this mamak , ask my boyfriend for $1, then he say he no coin, and you know what that mamak Said after that? he ask then $2? cibei. Nak kene tendang sia tu anak. Lol, so we said dunhave then he went to another person asking for PEANUTS. WTH.perangai sumpah FREELOADER.benci gua.Then this two men in front of us SUDDENLY talk to us, danial and william, both father and son for FREAKING 1 and a HALF HOURS. can u believe it? i mean, From drizzling to raining to finish raining to sunshine THEY DID NOT STOP TALKING. They were talking about what? about this stupid Egel dunnow what fuck lah. About selling things and promote to people. My boyfriend was seriously MNL-ing them and SADLY i have to talk to them. cibei sia. FOR FREAKING ONE AND A HALF HOURS. Khooorkh,so after that quickly say that will be checking out later and think about it and went to marsiling , lepak playground till death.So, we talk about Why girls are so stupid to let their boyfriend Flirt with other "girl friends" and not just challenge them whereas they just kept quiet. And about me and him about "AGE PROBLEM". i felt really stress.

im not joking, im sad myself for not being 18 this Year. or else, I can make him more happier by going to certain LEGAL places such as sisha , clubbing , m18 movies. Im sad cos i cant go to this places. Even smoking we have to go to a very close place and smoked. im sorry baby. i really do. Sometimes, i just cant feel whats he feels. Cos every 23 year old boy wants to enjoy his girlfriend in another Fun way. But because of me being so damn fucking underage . he cant go anywhere.saded.

30.1.09 01:13

Met my so called Favourite disney chanel icon, cinderella.
I swear im crazy if i saw her anywhere around singapore.
Do you people notice she's actually taller than me?
Toot! ohh, how i wish she's for real. LOL.
oukay, again, Im tired right now and seriously have nothing better to do rather then sleeping. so , urhh, draag the story to another post which i will make it onnn, anyday when im not tired or exhausted. so, people . be prepared . its gonna be a loong one. Bai, jgn bacerh eyh tu post, sumpah PANJANG. kiter tahu awak MNL. ok.
ku rindui S4L, sumpah tak bedek k. serious.

29.1.09 02:43

sorry.MNL nak update blog.

so damn tired and exhausted.

Will update it tomorrow ya?.

AbouT my boyfriend birthday and urh the model pictures. ciaoo.

Im very very tired people.

with love,

caderella

27.1.09 16:37

First part of the day. went out with bff cursed out to Jurong point and as usual talk cok otw to jp.reach jp and swear to god u can only c 1 shop open and 15 shops close. OMG. weird sia chinese new year. huhu. so again, cursed has his stupid yet irritating ideas of going to hospital and gave a prank on all the patients in the wards. dunnow what crap. i was seriously damn tired and seriously have no mood for some stupid fun stuff. sorry cursed. so, ended up ive put my mind on going singapore science centre. went there,so many people man. and dunnow what solar2 thing come. me and cursed was lost. so ate at the crowded Mcdonalds. OMG, the prosperity burger SOOO NICE. lol. so play2 some dunnow what thing at science center. and have fun. well, it was a bit boring, but all the way, it was funny. haha, especially our faces on tv. huhu. so grab some FREE STUFF. haha.

so later that day, plan to meet my cousins at home and slept at their home. huhu.so while then, we planeed to uhh, make up and kak mey put her as her model. i mean, me and shima. haha.kecoh pe siakk.lets just say we make up more than we took the pictures? but OMG, my face was seriously different. cant believe sia. kak mey the best!. lol. huhu. amcm , jambu tak aku?cibei. haha, so lyke we used to, after waiting for the looooong tyme, we decided to watch, but due to technical probelms, tak jadi. haha, so fed up last2 tido for a while. then go 7 evelen lepak till death. haha, we ate maggi mee and fyuhhhh, lama siol kita lepak. then talk2 to indra and pooof, around 5am, im gone. huhu.

woked up around 11am and indra called up and khoorkh. so,met indra and went to marsiling small s eleven coffee shop and eat roti prata there. kecohh siak,no fake. we ask the waitress aunty to take NEXT CHILL but since she couldnt pronounce the named she kept on repeating it several times. so indra was at the prata shop and i was sitting there. then the waitress call me and tell me to go to the water place, then i said next chill and you know what the aunty ask " i wanna see your IC". wtf. i was lyke lost sia. then i said wait2 my boyfriend got. then she still insisted my ic. then i repeat it again with a stern voice, then i so called raise my voice, making almost everyone looking at me , and said" di, diorang nak ic bodoh u". lol. then he went there. cibeiii. then the waitress aunty say sorry2 i dont know liao. or dunnow what stupid thing lah. haah. i was cibei, malu kan aku jek sia. no fake. so lepak at the block beside us and we played the ball game.sumpah mrepek sia. haha. indra get forfeiteed 20 pushups because he did not throw the ball properly and i lost because i never get the ball correctly. so ended up i owe him one honeydew drink and one pau. kemot betol laki aku. cibei. haha. so after that lepak till death at here. so peoplemthats the whole deal yesterday and today, chiaosz.

with love,

caderella

26.1.09 01:25

hello again.

Now, lets just say that today.

I didnt went anywhere. Just stayed at home.huhu.Slept from 10am to 6pm almost 7. so, msged indra up and qida just woked up. so blablabla. Indra called me up around 8pm or so and chatted with hym around half an hour. so, put down. And just slack at home lyke no one's mama house. huhu. boredom strikes and at last around 11pm went to 7 eleven with qida just to buy ourselves a drink. i bought big gulp which i really havent finished drinking it yet till now and qida bought herself slurpee. so indra slept early today and so did qida. and im here just blogging whiile eating my almond bar and drink my big gulp with indra shirt on my shoulders with his minyak wangi smell in his shirt. ohh, i miss him so muuch. lols.

with love,

caderella.

ye lah bai, aku jek careless. EHEQ!

25.1.09 09:29

thank goodness.

Things have been okay this days but still confusing things.well,as per normal. didnt went to fishing with indra but ended up go play pool and lepaking and tonning with qida and khai. so, as what we should said, things have been perfect, so, where did i go in 24-25th january, firstly, indra went up my house while waiting for qida and i to finished make-up-ing.so, afther that met khai at wdls checkpoint and proceeded to rasa-rasa seafood. i ate crispy noodles. slurrps! yumyum! and indra ate his urhh, chicken something something. haha. qida and khai, idk. later that afternoon went to play pool for an hour. it was seriously disturbing, lols. indra and me played a bet whereby when i win he will treat me to pool everytime we played the game and if he win i have to treat him any meal IF he has no MONEY. lol. so luckily,after making humourous "sexy" voices ,disturbing him from scoring into the hole, i WON!. yessaaah!. huhu. Indra was laughing and frustated because i play cheat. well, he play cheat too!. so after that went woodlands garden. Qida & khai , me & indra went to our separate ways. haha. ehem2. haha, naah, it just that we want to have some private romantic couple time, hehes. we do talk alot there. about me having a 2nd boyfriend one day and how would he feel and all crap come out. stress sei dia. kesian dadi aku. kakaka. so around 10.40 all was going home and all was taking 911. and indra wanna go home. i told him to sleep at my house but he didnt want to cos he so paisey, wtf. so lalala, drop down the bus.then i msg hym again and said " di plssss". and he said he cant and all. and i just give hym the WTF msg. so. he called me 3 times but i rejected his calls. until i asked my brother whether my parents are asleep or not, and LUCKILY he says yes.so, called indra again and indra said his coming over again.tonning with me. fucker,so damn glad soyal!. ily boyfriend. so blablabla, long story sia, we tonned at vista park and urh qida and khai have some quarell thang with each other and me and indra dont care and dunnow lah. si around 7am sent indra at wdls interchange and went breakfast with qida at mcdonalds causewaypoint. so lalala, went back home and here i am typing,lets go!.

i fucking lost my ring that indra gave me ! tercicir tengah jalan. soyaaaal!i want that ring back NOW!

23.1.09 17:47

Am i missing something? yeah. Where's my blog readers man? i dont see anyone VIEWING or lets just say, not even one tagged ME!. babi u all. haha. Pls pls pls, i tagged me yaw after u read. U know why? cos im scared im gonna talk to the blog myself. And myself again. Is my blog so boring? lols. ok random.

now, life has been extraordinary starting to get my nerves on. ive been quarelling with so many people tis few days and i deffinetly hate it. ohh , wat else. Yesterday, like i said the last post, i didnt came to school as my body was serious making me feel so fucked off. But i did went to my scondary school, what else, watch netball. i mean, they are ok. i guess.But HEY, they DO MISS ME. so, again, went and meet Syafiq bebeh,farooze,haikal,aqbar, and urhh.. zul and syafiq adi and zulaika and vinitha and abg an and ain and whoever else thats know me especially my juniors. ohh, sooo missing secondary school life bebeH! watever shyt. so go lepak with TNX. loooooonggg tyme punya. Dunnow why suddenly all of us get back together after we got separated. syts. only i Have been not coming to their "lepak" thingy cos been bz with my boyfriend. Chatting with akak nana, for quite a long tyme. And it has been great talking to her about her life and my life. what else should the topic be? BOYS. durhh!.so shytties. i try to make myself as far or as free as possible. u know, i will never come back to you, even All the TNX people knowsso, watever craps. Then went Home. and god dammit im not gonna tell tis story.

The family WAR is back!

thanks to speacial actress: myself of course

anoter actress:mother

And backup actor: dad.

so, the story began lyke this.

Once upon a nigtmare, caderella went home as per normal and sat at the couch. mother ask her where she've gone and all she said was go school and lepak. And then caderella told her mother that she didnt come to school because she have cramps all over her body and its feels so impossible to wake up. all of a sudden, Mother raise up her voice not even giving her daughter a chance to explain. mother got angry and kept on blaming and blaming about her negative things like her being lazy to school and giving her excuses and same reason. And then caderella get so exausted and fed up because her mother really drag her angryness to sentences which really have no point and noting to do with skipping school. so caderella blood tempreture went so high like the sky that she shouted to her mom with so many different kinds of sentences and went to the room and bam the door. Then mother came knocking and shouting and force to open the door . caderella did open it and just move away. mother then told caderella that she grounded caderella . By then , caderella was seriously pissed off because she have promise her boyfriend that she will go fishing with her boyfriend. MOther just and went of.suddenly, there's one big fat ugly monsterous big icon standing in front of her bedroom door. And he started shouting and scolding cad. Cad shouted back that it is between Mom and her and she didnt want the BIG ICON to interfere. But, He did not listen. He scolded everything , and start the same old scolding ways. Caderella was so pissed off that she herself raised her voice making her dad shout even louder and making him cough. good right?. So, it was like a zoo where the monkeys make fun of the elephants ears. So, cad and the big icon shouted at each other for about 20 mins or so. Cad seriously cant shut her mouth up when the big icon always asking her to shut up and said tat she's kurang ajar.(melayu skejap pls). So he get so angry that he ask his son to take tali pinggang but too bad no reaction. then quarelled again and exactly, he was in front, exactly in front of caderella face. what else caderella stared back, straightly to his eyes. and he said his grounding caderella starting that day. caderella was so fucking pissed of again and shouted and when big icon kept quiet , cad slammed the door and rest. so.the end. was that interesting? The best thing is now, he didnt beat me anymore. good. serve him right.

my own words.

People, sometimes in life you just cant stand what parents can be so ego about.

yes, its true that we cant shout back at them. But what for hearing them and follow their orders when u know that u urself wasnt at fault?. It better to let them see how strong u are. If parents say "why must i listen to u or Do i have to listen to u" just say YES. and shoot back. im not a child anymore and i know how to Handle myself. Sometimes, parents are too busy themseleves, that all they do is thinking of the negative side of u rather than the positive side.

Just, only do this when ur confident urslef. dont blame me if you got beaten up. its my part. thats is how i warn my parents that im not a srap bitch. well, at least IM SOO DAMN betteer than HANYUTS. Imagine if im like tis and they couldnt accept me , how am i going to be if im one of the spoilt brats, take drugs,pregnant,sex,motherhood,quit school,no job, lepak only. u see. im not that bad child. only parents think that way. Oh yaw , tis sentence make the big icon shut up. i said " So what, did i ever put a shame on this family? did i ever do someting that is soooo serious that everyone make tis family so in shame?. I did not. i never did. i have my respect on this family and u dont have to care about tis family".ok lah wtv k.

btw me and my boyfriend, we broked up. k bye. HAHA. no LAH!. krazy issit.

we're ok. lol. as per normal. ily boyfriend. we seriously love each other.so, people, dont flirt with my boyfriend. dia aku punya soyaallllll!.

with love,

caderella aka cad the ludah.

haha, pilih finger pls!.

22.1.09 12:56

hello people.

lets just say yesterday was the most tiring day ever.Lyke syht sia.

haiyo. SO here it goes, at 5.20am wake up from sleep, 6.15am went off to sengkang at meet aini. from there we ate MCdonald $2 meal and ppoof take the bus to ITE macpherson . Reached there at 8.45am, while meeting Ameerah and Lyeena. so, blablabla, everyone was seriousy tired or even worst sleepy. then get to know that our match is the first match. let's sleep pls. so the first one is against the routhless or lets say ite Tampines. huhu. we won with the score of 3-1. not bad. ( simpe thing is, neither of us knows how to pay foorball. not joking) so , we just pay anihow. haha. so, at 9am the mtach started and our 2nd game was at 12.40pm, so while waiting we just sit down and do nothing rather than doing something good. for example, going toilet,lepak. and urhh, dunnow what else. Then we watch our boys team ( the darknight) to play. so, 2nd game we played against Ite bishan ( ya, its my school), And we won 3-0. huhu. The last game was at 3.30pm with the so called Another iTE bishan team. We loose 3-0. It was the sadnest thing of all. maybe we are too tired and all. As a goalkeeper, me, ive done mistakes by not catching or grabbing the ball. And oMG the shooters and all sharpshooters. i cant see where the ball goes. and im sorry for that mistake we looose. but at Least we won 2nd!. yey!. Not bad for a first tymer. haha. So, OUr boys team emerge champion. COol ke pa!. haha,too bad, or else both of us get champion. no hope. but hey, at Least we enjoy. So, after that we went bathing or holycow theres a huge row waiting, luckily they Let us go in first. good. huhu. after that went to me who else rather than my boyfriends. huhu. he say i look llike chinese when he meet me. huhu. And deffinetly, i said to him, if anyone ask u wheter im a chineses, just say yes. haha. and he was like, watever lah sahira. so went to BEDOK just to eat at BANQUET. wtf. then tooke 168 and went wdls. by the time we reach wdls its already 9pm. Then wat else, lepak at study corner untill 11pm. and went home. so from wdls to sengakang to macpherson to bedok to wds. ok go.and today didnt go to school, my body is serious aching and i cant even move my butt. pain lyke fuck. mummy is so gonna scream at me when she knows i never go to school. who cares?. tomorrow will be Going school. ok go.

With love,

caderella.

21.1.09 00:52

whaddup. yeah.caderella is back yaw.

So, today as usual went to school. Nothing much actually. just random stuff. but seriously its very funny u know.Amirul seriously make me laugh lyke shyt sia. mrepek. haha. k, u readers might just dont understand what the hell im typing wright now, but uh, nvm. Lets just say There's this Group, called group A. So in this group A, theres lyke 7 people. And this chosen 6 people tend to Dislike this one person named B. so,we so called Bully that person for the day. lol. so watever. Went back home at around 5pm and i was seriously getting so restless. My lips was so numb and my body was seriously aching. omg. Then daddy called up and ask to go to the market but i god damn refuse . u know how i DISLIKE him and stuff. urh-No father daughter bonding PLZ. Tak usah ehh. huhu. so , lalala. Msged abg An, lepak. Huhu. I seriously do miss abg AN.ohhh ily abg AN!. So at Lastt, yey!, meet ash(no, not that ash)[its ash Aka Chaa], Abg An, Syahidah and another person which i tend NOT to know his/her name. haha, understand understood pls. so, lalal, lepak at blk 25. And indra called me up. woooohoooo, have some Couple talks ( pls do not be kepo), And popped ash and that his/her went off. Then sat down with abg and syahidah and started the Bukak story. lol. Urms, its PRIVACY. so sorry. haha. Kecooh giler sia. we were lyke sooo kecoh nak mampos. buat malu aje. but ok whaat. betol betol. so , lalala, took some pictures and go sheng shiong to buy some cats food and poof! wenty straight home. so after that, As a gonna be therapist, i learn how to massaged my mummy body. then indra called again and things distract me and put down. he wont be calling again. i was saded for the momment. so, editing friendster and stuff, still waiting for his msges, and nothing. it was only five minutes ago when he replied that his area has no connections urhh, lyke cibei. So, now im here being so lonely and yet sleepy.
ohh ya, tomorrow , i mean wednesday, will not be coming to school cos im going ITE MCpherson. Because has this floorball tournament which IDk why the hack im going. For a friends request . cos, they did not have enuf players and urm, they ask me to volounteer. so i rather skip school then learning all teh stupid subjects that have been stated at the time table. chronic. ohh well, wish me luck yaw! to saddening, ive got salsa class later on and god damn i cant meet indra. well, what can i do sia. imy. huhu. k sahira mrepek. so, again now, my whole body is so cramp. i dont even understand why. lyke fuck sei. And i have to wake up at 5. wtf. aiyooo. mau pengsan gua. NVM. so people, im going to die. Tomorrow theres tournament and SALSA class. Khoorkh. im soo going to BREak my body.uh, ok now, i need a rest. C u people later on!.

Keep in mind, im going wdls sec this thursday. hehe.

19.1.09 23:54

huhu.

So hello people. again.

So today i didnt come to school since i seriously so damn tired.

I was so damn restless. gosh, it took me two hours to actually make my mum agreed on me not coming to school today. luckily, she gave. omg. Oh ya, i remember, there's osa test around this week. aiyo, stress sia. hhuhu. so, Lets say, i didnt Go to school but went to meet indra. haha. chronic. but who cares, i miss my boyfriend lyke so much siaa. ira tak fake eh. huhu. So meet indra at 6pm+ and lepak at the marsiling hill. cool ke pe. haha, so we enjoyed talking and gossiping about every people that we know. indra was so stress about his camp stuff and i was stress about , urh, dont wanna say. so just went back home at 11.30pm.Both of us decided to go fishing this saturday sunday. YEY!, its gonna be so coool!.oh, my boyfriend is sooo cool. ILY. Cant wait going saturday. OHH! I think im in loove.

with love,

caderella.

17.1.09 21:27

hello.

Good night people. haha.

Well, sorry for the long lost post. hehe.

so yesterday as usual was school day and it was the exact same day as my menses. haha.

K watever, school was seriously boring and i deffinetly have stomach cramps all over my stomach. shyts. Then it was also my cca practise day but end up i didnt go to the cca thing.Sorry qida. huhu. It was seriously so cramp . after school went home straight away. iNdra called me up and told me his going to the movies and we'll be meeting me later at 4 or 5.huhu. So i just rest at home. aroud 5 meet him at marsiling . we actually going to chinese garden but ended up going marina Barage. haha. kecoh ke pe. So on the train we talk lyke and talk and dont know what were talking. lol. so reach there, there was suppose to be a shuttle bus but ended up the shuttle bus ended early. alamak. behh binget! so we took the bus 400. while waiting for the longest bus service on earth, we played the game SIPUT.haha. i seriously swear if you go take 400, there will be ALOT, i mean TOO MANY siput going up and down left and right. Since its the construction site so there are SOO damn many siput. we slap each other lyke crazy sia. haha. ohh,iloveyboyfriend.huhu. so Took 400 and went marina barage. We were actually lost, we never go there before. so, the marina barage was actually covered with construction site, so chronically indra go and ask this mamak guy and this mamak guy say "center tree". We were lyke loss sia. haha. Indra keep on asking can pass this constuction ah?. And this mamak kept on saying "i told u alrady center tree". haha. what i heard is "CENTURY". wth. haha. so, i seriously laughed lyke hell looking at the mamak face. so he showed us the tree. it was actually a narrow road covered by trees. haha. so we were like lauhing.Marina barage was great. seriously. we took a whole lot of pictures. so, blablabla. arounf 9+ went off. 10pm went jurong. And things started to get very corrupted. so, stress. ended up both of us ton. LOl. at jurong. cibei. THANK EH MEYYYYYYYYYY. lol. So we lepak at Chinese garden mrt station and we get bored and went playground at 111. so ended up playing dunnow what stupid games and accidentally , both of us fell asleep. haha. kecoh. at around 7am. im back home. ok. thats all.

candy,izzat thanks for the wishes.

aku syggg matair aku.

with love,

caderella.

15.1.09 16:38

Hello. Good afternoon.

How are you today? im fine. so sorry i dint update yesterday post. i guess i was pretty tired yesterday. hmm, ive forgotten what i did yesterday. urh, oh ya, yesterday school ended at around 4pm. It was so damn late and tied. fyuh. cannot stand it sia. Then went home, and sleep? and sleep again. i didnt on my laptop at all. well, actually im suppose to go to salsa class yesterday but ended up not going as mummy was so damn tired and me myself, im tired too. lols. so ended up doing nothing and chat with my boyfriend on the phone. And around 11pm, im gone , to sleep. So, the next day, which is today, i woke up at around 11am, bullshits, im suppose to get out of the house by 11 cos my class started at 12pm today. i was in the shocking mode and shout the whole house and rush to the washroom. haha. so boyfriend was lyke msging me and i ignored. at 11.20am , went out and boyfriend called me otw. we talk and talk and put down and around 11.50am i reach bishan mrt. Luckily man. But the WALKING part from bishan to bishan campus was lyke tooot. so walk of quickly and meet the rest at canteen. I was so thirstly then i buy root beer. Found out that two of my mates was busily eating their food. KOHAJA!. so, buy nuggets since i havent eat my breakfast.around 12.15 went up and luckily, the teacher just arrive. babi!. then for the whole two hours ive been sitting and do some stupid paperwork. my god. i never knew its that hard.serious. stress. haha. luckily, gennie was there. haha, eh, it was so fun sitting with gennie. When i get so kanchiong, she will get kanchiong too. haha!. funny siol. But hey, at least we understand each other and deffinetly help each other. So great to have a friend lyke her. haha. so , balblabla, SUDDENLY, my computer went OFF,blank. black. WTF! i was lylke urh okay and share with gennie, so off on back, i missed out practise 4, and went straight to practise 5. babi!.so, after practise 5, i then quickly do my practise 4. huhu. but ended up not finishing another point cos its time. haha, gennie was lyke ouh okokokok. and i was lyke " eh waiit ah better wait ahh". haha. and we were lyke fcuking laughing. haha. so, nellyKOK say that the next lesson is cancel. HOORAY!. omg.

Seriously, i think our class is the slack one cos we didnt have any homework or assignements, everyday teachers are ABSENT. Lyke lEPAK siak. haha. cool ke pe. ok so called my boyfriend more than 20times. but he never answer. Until my batt went flat. thank you garfield. soo, nnow im at home doing nothing. GREAT. im hungry but im so damn lazy too cooked. omg. what should i do now. boyfriend go lepak today i guess since his best friend called me and tell me where he's going today. even his best friend called him he never answer/ pehh binget. so yahh, nothing to do. maybe i just sleep. and sleep again.ok goo. haha.

with love,

caderella.

this picture is so candid. See all of our faces. haaH!

That's gennie! the right side picture.

Those are whom i lepak and close with.

14.1.09 00:17

(the ice cube)

Good nite,

hello.What happened today?. OMG!. the sweetest thang happened!. lyke sweetest thing happen.ILY!. ok. this is what happen. I met indra around 5.30pm and we sat down at the round table which had the chess thing. haha, we were so bored and we played the game dum

with fingers. HAHA.lawak.Then he said he went up first because he wanna bring me something, so after few minutes , he came down and give me a lollipop. strage ke pe. haha. Then i was lyke ouh okie, cute sia. then i just suck the lollipop. ( pls do not think of another lolipop). So, he said actually theres another thang, then my face turn into curiousity. He said it something that i have to wait until it melt. i was lyke, is it an ice cream? ice cube? what sia. haha. so he showerd me this heard metal case with ice. And inside the ice is what i can guess a Ring and a small paper. So, i was lyke, " a ring?", he just smiled. so i was lyke oukahy, really dont know what im thinking.hehe. so we waiting for STUPID 15 romantic minutes for the ice cube to melt so that i can reach the ring and a piece of note. lol. so i took out the ring and smiled, since the notes was so wet, we waited for another few minutes, by then i was so damn curious about the note thang. haha. so that note is still wet but i really cannot help it anymore. eagerly, i open it up and it said "now u have melted ma heart, would u be ma sweethart syg =)". I was seriously so damn excited and jumped and hugged him very very tigthly. i guess. haha, i really felt lyke crying but uh, too bad, it didnt. haha. oh ya, i was so damn excited that i never care about my handphone which fell down from my laps when i was doing the "sudden jumped". haha. chronic. too excited until i never kissed hym. lol, because the lollipop was in my MOUTH. how am i suppose to kiss hym? . wahh piang!.so sorry syg. haha. i seriously never let him go after few minutes? dont remember. it was the most happiest day of my lyfe. i really truly love hym. i seriously do. so, after that went to beach club. We sat and talked and chat. it was such a romantic place. i agree. Very sweet , touchable place. ohh, my boyfriend really know what my taste is. around 9 we left and then went to changi to eat . And at last, 10pm+ left that place. And 11.40pm, im back home.huhu.

Now i realise that his the one for me .

And how i wish there's nothing else i need.

because when he show his love towards me,

i swear to good his means everything single thing that i need.

with love,

caderella love indra.

11.1.09 21:17

ugly right my boyfriend? haha. actually, he's not that ugly. his just not ready for the pic.

well, today, the first day in the whole entire week, rest at home. what did i do at home? slagg. just rest sleep. and rest again. lols. around 6pm mummy went home and suddenly we came to a point that we're cooking nasi ayam. hehe. sedap ke pe. then siput msg me and we talk about ehem2, [privacy sikit] . haha. today, he really make me blush.he's msg really make me blush. malu nak mampos. hehe. so cooking with mummy was ok,except for the fried chicken. sungguh masin. ( mummy fried that thang, not me ok.) so, soon to be boyfriend is sleeping. khoorkh. at his bunk or idk. now, just slacking at home waiting for the laundry to finish. i havent wash my clothes. omg . gonna be so stress man. now mummy still talking about money issues. wahlau. when does i go free with this money stuff. ok go. now, waiting for my siput to wake up from his sleep and idk. haiyah, i will only meet him on his bdae, 28th . so looooong siol. cry together ahh. i miss him. badly lah sei. ohh, bf, u are missed. hehe.

people, i already find the perfect person.

i dont need anything else.

im back to my old romantic,lovable sahira.

not the stress one anymore.

PS: i can live without you. im happy now, i dont need you.

with love,

caderella.

01:03

huhu. ok go.short and simple. today went out with indra aka Mr siput or mr bonch. huhu and of course wandi. So, from Raffles city to city hall to city link and then went to bugis and bugis junction then to suntec city to esplanade and back home. haha. so thats the place where we go just now. fyuh, my legs are aching. no joke. walk with indra and wandi can make my leg go OUCH !. haha. but hey, its the best. the best thang is , from suntec city to esplanade we playe chasing game. haha. my god, never knew indra with the age of 23 going to be and wandi worst age 25 can play catching . haha, u know the underground that u have to walk and take escalator go up? yeah that whole row we played cathcing. busted siak. lol. i love them alot . seriously =). they're the best. let's just say indra is still the best boyfriend for now? cos he know how to hugged and kiss and had fun with me. ohh, soon to be bf, ur the best!. i wish that i will never regret loving u. mat rep bonchit. , nah,he's not mat rep. just mat panching. huhu. meet several people, lyke, zul lolok, sis angel, usopsantorian,pisz friend(dunnow who, forget),jul and girlfriend. ok thats it. lol.

thats it. short and simple? i know. takin care.

kiss me thru the phone.

with love,

caderella.

10.1.09 12:40

yes yes. hello beautiful people. again.now, what shall i talk about today.
okay. very sorry for not updating yesterday blog. was seriously damn tired about school.
Well, yesterday, two lecturers was absent from school. thank you. so at around 1.30 went straight to dance studio and what else , dance hip hop. let me tell ya, hip hop was so hard. its been a long time since i dance and i felt very weak at it now. the instructor is from one of the soul fusion? i don't know. but seriously, it was so stuff. but manage to dance. hooray! so at around 4 went back with qid while indra fetch me from school. not exactly from school aye. so went woodlands and say bye to qida and off to rasa-rasa restaurant to have our dinner. oh, i remembered i slapped indra 5 times for seeing a siput. indra was so fed up. i know.huhu. so went off to jeti, meanwhile saw atiqah and sara and ash and eerah. but didnt talk to them cos indra was busily chatting about something, haha. went to jeti, aye, we didnt do anything ok!. just a normal hugged and kiss( on the cheeks). haha. well, its pretty much can be said that we we're lyke lovers but not yet?. we seriously had a great time hugging each other. haiyhs. i realise that indra kissed me on the forehead was true. so, lol. He actually wanna kissed me in the lips but uh, not the right tyme yet, haha. ok ok , this is so way out of your dictionary, haha. so as usual around 10pm went home and i slept around 12. hehe. woke up tday at around 11 and what else going out with indra and wandi. haiyah. my body is seriously aching,ohh ya, forgotten to tell, i asked him ," what is the relationship between us now?" . he never say anything, until he msged me while i was otw home . he said, u...tadi u tnye i psl kita ttm tk kan?4 nw i da anggap u mcm my gal the only thing i wan it 2 be official on my speacial day if you really2 dun mind...awwwwwww. my god.Let's just say, a new celebration to me !yey!ily soon to be boyfriend. haha. krng, wish me luck for me and him to be together. well, i think ive got the right guy. thats itt.
with love,
caderella

8.1.09 09:51

ok. here we go again. wait, let's just say that im sorry for typing a huge composition in my blog. lols. As bai complain to me that she havent even read half of my blog, she felt very sleepy. hehe.

why not i make this blog very easy and simple. haah. if only i could. u know my type of person ayy, so many stories to talk to. (y). now, lets say yesterday was fun, meet my itefriends , sat together eat together, oh, so sorry naz bai for not going recess with you. hehe. understand understood ah eh?. fanatic.. So meanwhile, as usual, msg siput and stuff. but yesterday was yet again another day which we hardly msg each other. after two-three hours then we msged. uhh, chronic. went backed around 3pm and hangout with lyeena and mirah. hehe. tak perluu. =). then went off . suddenly, mummy called and ask me to go home fast, she said that the cats are not in the house but outside the house. she's scared that the kittens will be lost, (mcm paham pls). lol. i was so shocked then , seriously. dont siol! so reaching marsiling mrt , i didnt go the usual short cute route , where as i go to the long route, just to make sure if my kittens pass there or not. so,dont have, then i went up my staircase, and there, at the fouth floor, my two kitten sitting and almost sleeping. haha. And when i went up, they started mewinggg. awww. so cute. then they really wanna go inside the house. lols. cute lah., so let jutst say i felt asleep, lyke really asleep. And i dont know suddenly my hp rosak , lyke rosak, eee !. no vibration. siput called me 7 times but i didnt asnwer. sad siol. padahal that time i wake up from my sleep already. sedih bulu. so at 2 baru sadar then msg dia . but sad , dia nak tdo.huhu. oh ya., he dedicate to me the song with you by chris brown.. ohhhh. haha. sometimes, i dont understand. are we together or are we still friends? wahh. stress. haha . k lah people. take care.

with love,

caderella.

6.1.09 23:42

my oh my. what a day today. huhu. As usual, went to bishan and have some ice breaking games and stuff. Then went to the auditrium , having some talk issue regarding schools and other by the director of school. well, the talks are so not boring. seriously, the directore really make me laughed. hehe. she's such a joker. scorpio ka pa? lol.(y). Then went again to play games, play dog and bone and shout and shout and shoutt again, thanks to bala. the irriatting person on earth. lol, our bridge leader. hehe. so after that went lunch with naz and afif and afif went off and we went back to the foyer. so then tooked a bus sat with nadiah , and was talking to indra. haah, so nadiah was like ahhh? cos she's lost, she thinks that i was talking to her. haha. serious, lyke i said i didnt make any friends there. then suddenly, out of the sudden , i had 5 friends in mind. lol. we were so kechorable, like KECOHRABLE. lols. so then went roadshow with them. the funky five. then chat chat chat, went to meet indra at tampines. luckily wandi sent me to the bust stop. thanks bro!. soooo, lyke ive said, meet indra, went to eat and smoked at some close area. what else rather than blks. lols. then proceed to the hospital, meet daddy. haha.otw day, we were as usual talking and talking and i lay my head on his shoulder while hearing his songs. Then at dover, ive started to hugged him. boy im so glad he hugged me tooo. ohhh, ily. lols. padahal kita kawan ajek.so we started holding each other , i mean hugging and holding hands and stuff but very rare shall i say? . lol. ouhh, how i wish he could like hugged me more. i needed it very much. then at ward indra talked to daddy and stuff. lols. this part is very funny, serious. daddy asked him whats his dads name and indra said its salim. then daddy said where he stayed and he said tampines 800+, then daddy said maybe he knew his father. and daddy said that he work at airport at cargo or somethig lyke dat and indra said yes. lols. and he start everything that is similar to indra dad. And indra showed daddy his dad pictures and dad said , " maybe kenal, kawan cik dulu". makk kauu,, rupanya, my dad know his dad. so click? what a small world. haha. so we went down and think about the most stupid things that ever think off. and said " skali kita sedara eh?". wahhlauuu. lol. then indra sad lyke hell and deffinetly , me too. lol. so we went up and indra ask " cik, cik ngan bapak saya kawan aja akan?". and dad say "ah ah, kawan hi2 bye2 aja". fyuhh selamatt. lols. so visiting time is over and we went straight home . took the bus 197, sit with him. talk to him. i was so manja today. lol. dunnow why. so, drop off at woodlands and indra wanna go smoke,so temaning him. suddenly we started to hugged each other. lol, well, can i just say i started the hugged first? cos i god damn really need it, so he hugged me tighter and tigther. ohhh allah, give me strength. i dont seem to remember this part but i think he kiss my forehead. lol. after so long of NOT hugging. at last, i have my hug. ohh. with someone who i nearly knew for a few months and mabe would change my life. sending him home, i took 963 instead of 911. so , lalalla, he msged me and said he miss me. lol. ohh, imy also love. and we chat2. till now, later hes gonna sleep. well, thats all for today.the part which i dont understand is, when is he, lyke he, really gonna make me, his lover. i mean, i cant wait, i seriously cant. never had i ever feel this way. yes, never. he said that we really love each other but its takes time. time for whatt? urhh, im sooo loost. ohh, pls give him to me, i want him so badly. so so badly.

with love,

caderella.

5.1.09 23:52

bullshit. Today was so fucking unbelievable.

Morning, met zubaidah at marsiling Mrt then meet nazurah and faeza at woodlands. Went to bishan and started the welcome speec around 9+? it was so hot seating at the foyer. gosh,saddening, all of us was not selected to be in the same class.feel lyke syht. i was in room IOK.(i'm Ok). haha. wtf. well, lets just said that i didnt make any new friends today cos i dont feel lyke having friends. i know, random mode, its very hard to say that i DONT make any new friends cos usually im bubbly. But, i dont know why for that day i have the MNL character and just lepak on my own. break time, luckily, naz, bai and faeza had the same break as me. =) ver glad. or else i dont have any friends. lol. so after those ice breaking games then went to classroom. ive decided to sit alone as i said earlier, i dont make any new friends there. fyuhhh. then i just enjoy myself with the songs at my hanphone and also talk to indra.(y). The teacher was so damn belo , like one student said that his from naval base secondary school( skolah tak perluuu), and he said, "so do u usually go for war? practise ? its a base right?". wtf. and then once he heard "tampines as Japenese school",haaaah. sumpah merepek yaw. i just laugh. Ok, now a little bit of my class,there are 36 people there, theres 5 hunks , 1 malay and 4 chineses(one of them is soo hot , llol) the rest were all not very good to look at .the rest were girls.split into half, 2 ah lians, the rest was so nerd. 6 minahs(cannot be separated). 2 malay nerds, which love to conplain about dirtying their skirt. tak perlu okie. 2 malay chil doggies, me and this girl, three indians, one of them was from my school, priya. WAHHH. khoorkh.so, tottal how much? haha, i never count. more or less dunnow lah. kecohh lurh. i never even make friends with one of them. mnl. proceded to hospital and meet mum and dad there. cos i dont have the house key. thanks to my grandma. i hate this part right here. mum told me to ask brother to come and meet dad hospital. so, blablabla, he havent reach yet. then mum change her plan and say she wanna go home. then i msg brother and blablabablabla. long story dun wanna talk about it. it was so fucking irritating. ended up fighthing at the mrt , just because of brother not meeting dad. And they making it that im in the wrong. its only a small problem and for them its like the whole entire lifetime problem, with no foods and drink and stuck at a land with nothing but themselves. Tip for all of you, if someone asked u guys to msg anyone or ask help, just say do it youself. im not going to be blamed if anything happens. ok go. my god. they both kept shooting and shooting sentences to me, like dummy u know? i was so fed up and just couldnt be bothered. shyts. tak perlu. oh ya, forgotten, my dad got lung infection, ghaut and diabettes.ok done. that momment i was talking to indra and stuff. so blablabla. reached home then suddenly mum give me this piece of paper which my grandma wrote. she said to my mother, since everything is cock up dunnow what shyt. i dont wanna remember, then lalala, she said to throw away my kittens. i swear i told my self WTF. and mum started to complained and told me that the kittens were actual DISTURBING her buisness at home. lyke, they cannot stand the smell of the kittens dunnow what crap all come out. And then she started making unreasonable sentences like, my dad is now sick and all and no one had to take care of them. And started to UNGKIT that she's the one who had to buy the kittens food and all the stupids stuff without even using my money. like wasting money like that, and then she said thats why i dont wanna have kittens because everyone is sick. my brother got asthma then daddy got every sickness then he got then she herself got astma and me, i dont have any. VERY HEALTHY INDEED. by the times she told everything, tears was seriously rolling down my cheeks. lyke wtf siak. I cried for almost an hour and just lepak at bilik urut or shall i say MY ROOM which had been changed to her Buisness STUFF. For that momment i seriously started to hate my grandma. She sometimes irritates me. like really irritates me. Seriously, it isnt fair for me. lets make mum as U. ok more easier. Firstly , u wanna make ur own business and begged me to actually give u my room with all the sympathy faces few months ago, i dont actually wanna give u my room cos i know that room is mine and i never want to ever share with my brother. And then dad started emoshitting and said used the master bedroom as the bilik urut. fanatic pe?. i was seriously irriatted and whatever shyts i sacrfice my ROOM, imagine, MY ROOM, the most biggest and important thing in my whole entire lyfe. now this is what i called a BIG problem like ur in a land with no foods and drinks. which i never ever LEAVE, my private, the place where i cry the place where i always have ideas there . Sacrifice tak pasal tau. Then when i asked her about having a pet she agreed. EVERYONE in the whole entire family agreed.And then after growing the kittens up, u wanna throw them away. And started ungkit-ING? tak perlu pls. My kittens is my lyfe now. First, u take away my room and replace it with kittens , and now u wanna throw away the kittens and what are u going to replace it with?.yes true u have give us all the pleasure that we want , all the things we want, but why, ALWAYS, i have to sacrfice. If u hate the kittens why u bought them foods, buy them toys and syg2 them? . And now u said , " mummy pun syg diorang tapi nak buat apa". or something lyke dat. i dont know lah. and she suggested to put them OUTSIDE, sleep outside eat outside berak outside, lagi bagos kau buang kat longkang soyal!. sometimes i dont even understand why ur PATIENTS dont even like the cats smell, from them, have pets dogs, more EWW.. some are religious and say bacteria or Nagis. banyak songeh lah pulak. irritating sia. Sometimes i dont understand why she wanna make my ROOM as a urut room. Dah cukop satu bilik , dah lah. And there goes again, BLAMING me for having a pet which she say she had been loosing customers. Just because theres kitten in the house?. sumpah takda maknanya.Boleh lah korang senang hati buang tu kucing, tapi paham ah soyal tu kucing yang buat aku happy kat rumah. kata busok lah tu lah ni lah. Yelah, semua aku buat dalam dunia ni salah. takda yang betol. semua nyer salah bagi korang. Masok Nitec kene fuck. aku tau lah aku bodoh, tapi tak payah ah nak kene-kenekan aku. lagi2 nak sakitkan hati aku. dari satu ke satu. takda break takda pause. Takda ke korang kasi aku SPACE nak happy ke pe. dah lah bilik aku kene tarik, abeh tuduh aku jadi bodoh abeh tuduh aku lagi bawak kucing, ye lah, dah bagus tu aku tak jadi hanyut. Pk sikit ok, aku bukan nyer RABAK daripada orang2 yang kat luar tu. dah bagus aku ada harga diri. Tak perlu kata2 baek ni smua, dah memang aku anak tak guna. betol kan? aku tau. tak yah ckp pun. Takyah bagi harapan. Harapan tak guna. tak mendatangkan ape2. binget. serious.ni part takda fake. sumpah aku nyer kepala nak meletop . Memang uh untok korang benda kecik nak buang kucing, abeh aku kat rumah nak buat apa siak. kalau aku ada bilik takper uh sia. kat rumah pon mendak. I cannot stand it anymore siol. aku rimas. aku binget. dengan semua uh. how i wish theres sumone with me right now. like now, ottak gua nak mampos. dahh, habis. aku tak nak nanges lagi. penatt.

tomoroow, class start at 9. and back at 5. Meet indra after that. i seriously wanna hugged him.thats it. if i cant hu him, i wanna hugged fir. thats all i need. thats all. a hug.

Im not okay. yes, im not. get it?

00:56

hello readers. huhu. Now now now, okie, so today i actually had to meet fake husband at around 12.30 but ended up meeting at 1.45 cos my body was seriously aching and plus have stomach cramps. idiot. actually planned to accompany mummy to take his pants and stuff as mummy wont let me go out as she's scared that daddy would lyke been discharge, luckily, my bro told me that daddy was warded. hehe. Well, its not fair since ive been paitao-ing people so many days. So, im happy that im free today and told fir that im coming with him to meet erica. hehe. and he was so god damn glad i came along. lols. ohh ily bestfriend!. so so so, we went to woodlands checkpoint took his pants , went to place photo place , took my passport photo(so god damn burok.) and headed off to far east plaza. there, we called erica up but it seems that there some reasons again.so lalala, we went to eat at this place. my god. ive forgotte. hehe,Fir doesnt have enough money and i pity him alot. so i treat him food. he said the place there was soooooo mahal. lol. so he bought claypot beef rice and myself claypot chicken rice. hehe. and both of us order bandung!. yeeyyy!. sluuurrps. EHEQ!!. ahaaaha. so after taking some pictures and stuff, fir paid for me bandung which is lyke $4 only? while i have to pay $14 for both our food. haha. kemooott.l lol. so headed off and went shopping, suddenly bff wanna go Pansai aka berak aka SHIT. so,. lol all alone i walk2 and saw this few dreses. ohh. sweet siol. lyke betol2 lawa. hehe. then after he finished his business we went to meet erica and her boyfriend, sadly they were fighthing and erica boyfriend give his bad mood face, very slumpy and stuff. kecoh siol. tak perlu. okey. huhu. so erica was so god damn excited meeting fir . lols. so we go to wee lock place and go and see fir's GLOOMY BEAR. khoorkh. lol. hehe.=).he was soooo, damn excited. and force me to buy for him for his bdae presents. ye larrr, aku kaya pe bff. hehe. then after that, after saying buhbye to erica we proceeded to hospital. we took the train to jurong east. In the train, it was so fucking funny, we kept on slapping each other games. for people who know me too much, lets say we were playing the SIPUT game. haha. but suddenly he started playing busses and we started slapping each other for seeing things lyke LONGKANG. haaah. ok , lyke longkang lah, basikal lah, banyak lah. cant remember. can be said,people was looking at us but we couldnt be bothered. lols. we kept on slapping and smacking and laugjing like orng giler. haha. it was so sweet, its been a long time sinc i had fun with him . lol. so meet brother and jurng east, and in the bus 97, fir countinued smacking my head. ok, mnl. lol. so reach there, smoke a cigg and went to ward. daddy and mummy and nenek was there. so random. huhu. went down to cafeteria and brother ate ice kacang kosong and fir dranks his bandung. ohh ya... SINCE that bff went into sec 5, he started spotting my vocabulary mistake. tak perluuu. lol. binget. so we chat chat chat.around 9 went off? . and ok, so reach his blk, he salams my mommy aand nenek, and after that i hugged him. then skali we were like facing face to face and was like almost KISSED each other in the lips. jhahahhahaha. we were like shock like fucked but luckily we push each other away and laughed like hell. lol. kekek giler kan uuu??? . lol. haha. so thats was our story.

i love my hot-hot bff. forever baby!.

hehe. ok now, what else rather than mr siput. hmm.

we do msg.we do call. but lesser dunnow why. hehe.

ohh, he told me not to be naughty tomoroow,

since it was my very 1st day of ite.

ok random!.

now, the paisey thang is, when we wanna put down the phone,

i seriously accidentally said "i love you instead of i miss you".

What was i thinking sia? soo paisey.

i was soo shocked that i said that. maluuu nyerr.

And he said " i love you too".

And we put down the phone.

wow, lega sikit. hehe.

i shouldnt get so excited about this. haaah.

ok lah gtg already, MIRAHMEY is starting to irritate me with her editing of blog stuff. khooorkhh.haha.

3.1.09 22:02

hello.im back.

Hmms, well, today was supposely to the day to actually went out with fake husband. But ended up at NUH cos father went sick and all. Long story. ( Mummy called me up at 10am and asked me to fetch dad from home , she said dad coudlnt walk by his self as he was shivering and almost fainted, i was so damn piss off by then , i was just aiyayaya-ing. Then put down the fun. On the toilet, mum called again and told me not to go to polyclinic, she said dad fainted at the polyclinic, firstly, i was so damn shock cos dad never fainted before. so, she said met her at her work place at 11am, so then my aunty followed me and mom and went to the hospital, after reaching back, mum go check up on him. then my cousin and grandma came.so blablabla. long story.) Aunty says that theres this dicount sales at Jp for school shoes, and i tought why not buying one? so, went jp, take a look at all the BEAUTIFUL PRICES of shoes. huhu. ended up buying this Converse pairs of shoes cos idk. it looks plain but awwesome!. lols. Then i saw this ezlink sticker and find again, my cinderella sticker. MY gOD!. only have one. boy im so glad i had it. haha!. mummy buy it for me. and i dont know how much i get so excited about it. yes its just a sticker but, haaaah. dunnow.walking around with mum was so funn, now i knew what to buy for indra birthday. hehe. yeeyyy. ily mummy!. yabedabebdooo!. So, after going Jp we then went chinese garden and sat down, what else, LEpak ah. haha, we talk and chat. And deffinetly gossip with grandma,aunty,and cousin. hehe. kekek. siols. so, tomorrow maybe the plan is going out with fake husband,just MAYBE. cos scared dad would like been discharge of something. dunnow lahh. aiyo. im so sorry for fake hus cos its been so many times that ive paitao him and for me its not fair.so sorry.

now, why im excited for today? because, indra msg me this morning and ive been blushing all the way until now. huhu. So kepo's, this is what he msg me.

1st msg: u so far in ma 3yrs singe u r the best al dat i get 2 noe sh..thanks for exceptting me as ur fren in the first place :).

2nd msg:Ya, walaupun u 16 but u dun tink childish..but u tink like a mature gal.. eson eman bekna ( it means i syg u in boyan) barney , i really hope the best 4 us.. btw i hope in ur future skul u takkan berubah and i try 2 improve maself 2 be a better person..

3rd msg: Awwww. so sweet. really ah im ur perfect one? watever it is we love each other very much but juz wait 4 the tyme 2 come...gd nite, swit dreams, swit titet and muarCks.
lost? me too. haaah. oh well, kalau ku inginkan cinta, ku harus menunggu cinta. betol tak betol tuan2 dan puan2?

with love,

caderella.

2.1.09 02:59

=). Okie. now, what should i say. Things have been great this few weeks. No deppresion, no nothing.Let's say that there's many things that i did few days ago which i dont feel like blogging it. Nope, not because its hurting or something.But just im too lazy to type. Ok maybe i should type. haha. since im lyke very very bored.

31.12.08. went out with MirahMey,Boynas,Shimadisini and elmo. What else that we do then took a ride in elmos car and travel singapore. haaah. At 12 i guess we went to meet Mey's block to meet elmo. Then we went to kent ridge park to hangout.like hangout. took some pictures and stuff. after 2am , we proceeded to actually go to "lau pau sat" but ended up going this place just beside esplanade. So, steadily we drove there and Toooot, that place close. so i thanked elmo for making us coming there and elmo was so coudlnt be bothered. haha. i mean, his like MNL-ing face. huhu. So, after lots of complains elmo then came to an idea of proceeding to this plave at bukit timah? i think so. So, we went there and woooww, that was so many people day, let's say its a popular place aye. then we chat.took some stupids pics. So while eating, i accidentally say this sign called "Kay poh road". haaaah. ok funny. I never knew, lyke never in my 16 years of lyftime ive known that road before. huhu. so, after laughing by myself, at around 4 i guess we headed off and sent mirah and shima home. we lapak under their block for 20 mins i guess and elmo send me and nas home.=). thanks for the ride brother-in-law gonna be. haaah. the fucking thing is now, after hearing and reading and taling about Mey family problem, i seriously started to hate my uncle. mrepek nak mampos. im sorry for Mey ,i seriously do wanna help i dont realy seemed to figure out what too help. lyke, what should i do. im sorry kak mey. im really lost. never even knew that uncle would do such a thang lyke that. I know that ur having all the shits in lyfe now but u have to bare with it. i mean, idk. sorry akak, i cannot do anything, all i can do is make u laugh and smile and cheer u everytime i see u.=). try not to think alot.

So the next day, of course what else rather than countdown. met qida around 9+ at cck . huhu. then both of us went to city hall to meet who else, rather than my very precious garfield, shahindra. haha.Ohh ya, and his bestfriend wandi. huhu. qida is seriously chronic. lol. she always stick to me until i felt very hard to actualy talk to indra. huhu. Let me say, I HATE THE ROAD BLOCK. okgo. i hate it. lyke alooott. cannot walk here. cannot walk there.aiyah, the merlion place was so tak perlu. we cant even go in sia. but luckily theres another way. and we stick there all the time. haah, we took pic, we chat we talk. and thats very cool. so after countdown,we planned to go and eat supper, or should i say dinner?. hehe.wandi actually planned to go to ECP. which i was lyke uuhhhhhkay. haha. Then we walked2 . i chatted with indra while ive forgotten about qida. luckily wandi was there and accompany qida. (y). so, went to peninsula and buy drinks and walk to Marina square. heehe. from there we ate at Mcdonalds and ive saw Wal's friend. Jibby,Haziqkambeng,kechik,and few more brothers. chat with kechik for a while and then went back to chat with indra qid and wandi. huhu. after eating as normally, we sat at marina square slide place. haa.for like an hour?. from there, we chatted with each other. revealing stuffs. Talk more about me and indra., Lyke,whats Our character when he is in a relationshp and stuff. so slowly, we revealed and reveald. so its cool.but it was a little bit weird. huhu.aroud 5.45am we walked to esplanade, and sat again for 20 mins. qida was sleeping and me and iindra and wand was chit chatting about wandi friend and stuff. we sang some shitty song. lols.so, after that went back home. i mean i went back home sleeping at qida crib. haha.then afternoon wake up,bath, went out with qid and qids mum. and went meet family at sheng shiong. huhu. kecohhh. then went bck and do nothing. indra called up and we chatted. seriously i do miss him. even though we've met yesterday. haaa. we chat and chat. its been a long time since weve chatted for hours. Im glad we talk we talked for a few hours. huhu. we laughed,we've chat.haiyhs. so he put down the phone cos hes gonna worked later on and here i am blogging heeeee=). today, im gonna lyke meet qida again.what else, registration for my ite stuff. hehe. my god, i cant believe im going ite. wahlau. malu gua babe. hehe. bestt ahh. im going ITE. wahlauu. haaah!. okey, i hope i will never change the way i am.hopefully.Let just say indra and me is like TTM and nothing more okay . huhu. ok lah, thats all people.

Eson eman bekna.

with love,

caderella.

Hanyalah kamu.